parallax. a word. a thought ( Read more... )

i finished "Broom of the System" ( i can't seem to figure out how to italicize...) yesterday, and as with "Infinite Jest" it succeeded in developing many points of intrigue while never resolving a thing. it was a damn fine book tho. he has a point ( Read more... )

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-Living apart and at peace with myself, I came to realize more vividly the meaning of the doctrine of acceptance. To refrain from giving advice, to refrain from meddling in the affairs of others, to refrain, even though the motives be the highest, from tampering with another's way of life - so simple, yet so difficult for an active spirit. Hands ( Read more... )

well jeff's birthday was a success, tho there at the end well i suppose she has every right to but geez, throw me a bone here, shot down and dragged around as noisy as a sack of bones jesus why do i smoke before i write in this thing. ok. the "asshole" thing. i'm beginning this thing all breaks down to aestetics. I JUST LOOK LIKE AN ASSHOLE. so ( Read more... )

i'm a creature of habit. it's the little things that keep me content. a routine- well. at least some defined habits, nothing kept in a log or pre-ordained by a pocket planner...like writing in my live journal... what can i say tonight? something i suppose, find a rhythm and run with it, keep it in a bag with some ellaborate sign to mark it with and ( Read more... )

alright, alright, i'm ok now. i stayed in a dream for most of my daze off, not a bad one, dull maybe, seamless. i moved around a bit, mostly avoiding things, trying to keep a seperation from that wheel that had stopped moving upstairs- something isn't clicking, i need a hitch, a secondary route, but it's like being drawn uncontrollably towards ( Read more... )

TAKE THIS LONGING ( Read more... )

nadia's party was pretty lame- had a coupla early margaritas and sat around pretty much just watching things. which pretty much made me pissed off like it always does. i ate a burger just to be polite but couldn't finish it because i kept coming across these hard lumps of fat (prob. cow tumors) that hurt to bite down on and that discouraged the ( Read more... )

"you're one of those guys, that uh, actually cares. girls usually don't like that." so said miss p ( Read more... )