i'm starting over...

and i really don't have much of a reason, except that i can't stand for anything stagnant.

for the record, my dad is my hero, and the best person that i know.

p.s. i take back the mean friend comment. 100%, and i'm sorry.

i do not know where the hell i found such back-talking bitch friends and retarded loose-tongued aquaintances and soon-to-be-ex-boyfriends that don't understand how much deeper this is than it all seems, but i seriously think i need to jump off a fucking cliff, because all of a sudden everything is SO SCREWED UP. thanks to me, sure, but also thanks ( Read more... )

hey HEY hey, i'm not grounded for life after all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

just, until i can get off my lazy and scared butt and get up the nerve to explain myself. doesn't seem hard, but mannn, i'm a chicken.

a  big part of my life consists of making wishes. it's one of my many wierd obsessions, but i wish on anything and everything. every eyelash, every yellow light driven under, every ladybug. i schedule my life around knocking at 11:11, and i'll stare at the sky for a full thirty minutes, waiting for a shooting star. i've fallen into a comfortable ( Read more... )

OH WOW have i missed a FREAKING LIFETIME of important events. i mean, i know i was in the capital of boredom for two weeks, but still. combined with the fact that i'll continue to be cooped up for possibly a million years while crazy events continue to occur (without me) makes me want to jump out a window.

( because i enjoy being part of the action ( Read more... )

im hooooome!

and if i wasn't terribly, awfully sick, this would be the happiest moment of my LIFE.

fc, i'll  never leave ya again!

I'M COMING HOME TOMORROW!!!!

happy new year, babes!

2004 was a year to remember, that's for freakin' sure. but just by using my special year sixth sense, i can tell 2005 is going to be pretty interesting. it's just a day, an invisible mark of time, but nonetheless, i'm really excited.

(( So this is the new year
And i don't feel any different
The clanking of crystal
Explosions ( Read more... )

OH NO! i've put it off for too long! now there's no way i'll ever have fun again! now there's no way i'll be able to freeze my knees off in the night air, while fulfilling the perfect perfect perfect dream i've had for like...a million years! oh wow, nikki, your procrastinating ways have reallllly screwed you up this time.

haha, as if that's ( Read more... )