i get the feeling that a period of many confusing, obnoxious, depressing entries is to come. my apologies in advance.

in normal circumstances, this is the best song on earth (not really) but right now, it's just one of those things that i'm listening to only to make me feel worse...on purpose. because i'm crazy.

((...I couldn't see how every sign ( Read more... )

um...my heart hurts.

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fucking fuck. so this is what i fucking get for trusting my entire heart and soul and happiness to be safe in the hands of one person? this is what i get for sacrificing my grades and my friends and my peace and my family, all because i can't live without you? oh, awesome. great. fabulous. thank you for everything, and ( Read more... )

i'm feeling better.

maybe it was the pumpkin spice latte that perked me up, or today's awesome soundtrack. most likely, though, it's the lack of homework and the fun projects i'm doing in my blissful free time. that is, copying krisie by decorating my room and making an excellentay christmas list.

the holidays are here, babes. (why do i call ( Read more... )

the thing is, i'm not pissed off or anything. i just have some really hurt feelings. it's just a little sad not being able to feel completely secure in knowing your best friends are always going to be there to back you up.

oh well. all in all, it just means another lousy saturday, and the uncomfortableness of not knowing what to do at all.

i don't even know what to feel...

i know i'm retarded. oh, and i forgot, so do YOU. uggggggh. but sometimes things piss me off like you wouldn't believe, make me want to start sobbing, and tempt me to just hug you forever...all at the same time. i'm sure you can imagine how pleasant the sensation of your brain (or heart?) being ripped in three ( Read more... )

why was today such a great day? maybe because i didn't let anything get me down. maybe because i'm just so excited about life as a whole right now.

i hate sounding like a dumb sappy happy girl. but you know what? i'll say it while i can. i can't remember really having the chance to be happy in a long, long time. the past few months have been the ( Read more... )

ohhhhhh no.

they're onto me. time to try the impossible!

oh yeah...just a friendly reminder that CHRISTMAS IS IN 18 DAYS.

sometimes i wonder if i'll always feel this.

sometimes i wonder how long it will last.

i can't think that far ahead.

that's it.

i'm running away.