Ok, so by doing my brother a huge favour, he has turned around and started to take blatent avantage of me, and my hospitality ( Read more... )

I made my fiancee scrambled eggs on toast this morning, she loves breakfast in bed; then I jump straight on the laptop. The moments of logging on, I can still feel it; the hurt, the pain, the jelousy. I hope, I pray a message was left for me, just so I can feel something else. Nothing! I dread to do this all over again, I fancied someone else ( Read more... )

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After 10 years I am getting in touch with old friends from school, I've moved on, they've moved on which is cool, but it hurt like fuck when I realised I still fancy my childhood sweetheart only to find she is married now. I feel the teenage jealousy again, we talk yet, I do not want her to know how I ever felt about her. I have a fiancee, she is ( Read more... )

here inside this room, just thinking, just thinking words, angry words that I am screaming, but only in thought. Friendly, Friendly, Friendly, I arrive to those grattifying horrifying words that penertrate my soul. All goes silent, the little voice in the back of my head is screaming for someone to say something, "Cough", I wake up, it's not even ( Read more... )

Today the world world deem itself just that tint shade more lonely. Progress some could say, but to me it was much more than that. progress at this stage could only create hope, and I am tired of dreaming. I was so determined to quit and walk away, and that very potential offer was available to me, yet I know that by quitting; my next venture ( Read more... )

Ok, I'm still awake. So I thought I'd tell you about when I managed to get sectioned and the background behind it all ( Read more... )

Once more a premature end has come to arise, to turn and walk away was just one of many dreams I had wished for, for a damn long time. Yes I had made a regrettable mistake, and for the protection of my own mind and my own sanity; the decision is that I will turn my back on those who I never could trust, and be of it who persistantly stabbed me in ( Read more... )

A long time may have passed the brook, but within a shadows eye, all words are left strictly unspoken as one tries to calmly walk away from the present that haunts. Nobody, no-one could possible understand where this will all be going, or to for that matter where it all came from. Such is life, and lies, and love; and to believe any kind of ( Read more... )

So here is another, late night of lonliness. My lover be only just footsteps away, yet Shhh shhh, may she rest as she still be sleeping; dreams of oneself I'm sure. Such a beautiful lady, to watch as my tongue may gasp. The picture seems so perfect, possibly be my every wish. I never would've thought that I'd feel so content ( Read more... )