I am so close to losing everything......apartment, car, credit, friends, family, etc ( Read more... )

don't know how obvious this is ( Read more... )

just had a GOOD conversation with my father (who is closer to japan than to florida and has almost nothing to do with my life) and im feeling much more confident than a couple days ago. its only been a week (and a very sleepless one at that - 3:30am right now fuck oh well) but ive now given up every drug i was dependent on and it feels pretty ( Read more... )

TO DO:

find a job ASAP get outta debt
pay all the bills..even those late ones
return movies/books/cds to the library (2 months late)
clean haus?
get the drains unclogged

WHAT I"LL MOST LIKELY DO:

lay on the couch all day, fear the outside world, make the apt as dark as possible so i have no clue what time/day/month/year this is

people only call me for drugs now. i have barely any real friends. i miss hanging out with people just for fun...like i get 10 calls before i even wake up and yah every one of them is "business" my life is so shitty now. guess i shoulda stayed a railthin drunk...at least those days were honest

So, for the past 3 months I've been dealing with being depressed, unemployed, alone, and worst of all addicted to heroin. I started using again after being completely sober (quit drinking too....which I don't think anybody least of all me expected). After the first shot one great night (a girl actually kissed me the same night - after a year that ( Read more... )

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snap yo fingaz

i love blackjack, but I'm not addicted to gambling. i'm addicted to sitting in a semicircle.

anyone need a roommate in tampa?