Dinner

[themarpessa]

I'm trying to catch Ryan's gaze. Wanting him to sit on my other side. I know there is something I should say to him. The words fleet through my mind, and then I am left blank

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[thedebauchone]

"Hey Caden" I shout over Cassie, and give him a big, cheesy wink.

[theperseus]

I start to answer Alexis, but the words die in my throat when I see Aurelio take up the seat on the other side of Cassie.

"Hey," I say to him, slowly.

[themarpessa]

"Um. Hey Aurelio. Why don't you go switch seats with Ryan." I command through gritted teeth.

[thedebauchone]

"Ew. then I'd have to sit by Alexis, wouldn't I?" I snigger, like Cassie a moron and can't understand this possible doom, "Anyway. You get to be in an Aurelio-Caden sandwich!"

[theaurorasfate]

Aurelio tears Caden's attention away from me, something I am used to. I look cautiously to Ethan and he gives me the smallest of smiles. I direct my gaze to Ryan, who is still standing awkwardly.

[themarpessa]

"Oh fuck." I mutter to myself, rubbing my temples.

Why does everything can be so damn hard? You know things are tense when the fucking seating arrangement at dinner causes hurt feelings.

"O.K. if you're sure?" I reply to Ryan across the table. He doesn't even look at me. Alexis is trying to make him feel better. I could kiss her right now.

"So...Caden...yeah."

[theperseus]

"Uh...so...should I start serving?" I ask, desperately reaching for any topic of conversation.

[theaurorasfate]

"It's all you, Caden."

[theperseus]

I grimace in Alexis's general direction, but reach for the pork and begin slicing and serving it.

[thedebauchone]

It's funny how even though I can't see it, I can feel Dalus's hand on Alexis's hip.

My toned mind can feel the heat radiating from the contact. Throbbing in the air. His love and want for him singing through my head.

I give him a ferocious grin. But I say nothing.

[themarpessa]

No one is speaking to me. So I'm just sitting here; stone-like in my chair and uncomfortable--wishing it were me making Ryan chuckle and smirk, not Alexis.

Some girlfriend I am. I bite my lip, and stare at my plate. Shifting my food around with my knife.

"Is the food tolerable, Caden?" I mutter blandly.

[theperseus]

This whole thing is awkward on so many levels. Numbly, I pick at my food until Cassie speaks.

"Is the food tolerable, Caden?" she mumbles.

"Yeah..." I say vaguely, before I realize how I must sound. "It's very good," I try to amend, cringing inside.

[themarpessa]

“I wonder if it’s possible to die from fucking sheer awkwardness alone.” I mumble to him darkly, "if so...I think my life's flashing before my eyes."

I take a deep swallow from the wine glass adjacent to my plate, and frown.

[theperseus]

I snicker softly.

"I know how you feel," I say lowly, reaching for my glass. "But you seem to have the right idea."

With a quick grin, I drain almost the entire glass in one swallow.