Ah, yes. Halloween.
My holiday festivities began on Wednesday. I generally try to draw out this holiday as long as possible. Wednesday was fairly simple. Frank, Matt, Dan, GhostHunters and an eclipse. We stayed up until 5am, Frank, Dan and I. Talking. Laughing. Iron Chef. It was just relaxing. A nice time with nice friends. The beauty of the eclipse was just unparalleled. There was about a half hour I just spent lying in the grass accepting the death of all things as the begining of their rebirth. This passed week, truly starting then, I felt most infused with the Goddess. It was then I made a pact to myself that, above all else, I live a good life, as a good person, and still maximize my own personal utility. Wednesday I promised to myself I will no longer be walked all over. I no longer jump and run. I just live. And do what I can to help along the way. Thank you to Dan and Frank. Not sure if you're aware, but your presences have been a great help in my learning to center myself again.
Thursday. Now this was something special. But then again, when ISN'T seeing the Warrens, special? Lorraine and Tony gave an amazing talk, as usual. The slides were grand, and of course, the stories, the film clips, everything. The very energy in the auditorium. It was packed, by the way. An amazing turn out. We were very (*very*) close to the goings on... like three rows away ;) Again, another evening with wonderful people. Dan, Matt, and Joe. Well, wonderful aside from the fact that Joe, for some reason or another, just loves tormenting me. We can discuss his cigarette disarmament tactics and human pong another day though. lol
Alright, and here we go! So, Matt and I go to this wicked fucking party on Friday hosted by a lovely young lady known through QUAD and AQUA. We showed up at the RC to hitch a ride with Mikey. While there, I met a boffersmith, named Will. He and I are traveling forth to a hardware store to obtain the materials needed to make my own boffer sword. (But in retrospect now, yes, I'd like one because they're fun, but not for the reasons I originally thought I wanted them. To those original reasons, fuck that noise. Give me a fucking break. That was the silliest thing I've ever heard suggested. Save it. But enough of that. If you don't know what I'm talking about, good. It'll make your head hurt.) So, in any event, we go to this party and I'm just being a little dance-floor harlot and loving it. Techno is beautiful stuff. Here's to my darlings who I danced with. Especially Venus. You were awesome!
So, I'm walking around, after aquiring a beer, and I see this fellow dressed as Death. He and I begin to talk. Any man who can quote Voltaire can spend as much time as he wishes with me. He was one of the most intelligent people I've ever been privilaged to a conversation with. And we talked for hours. Talked, laughed, danced... for hours. And because I didn't want to see the evening end, I suggested we walk home together, just to... perhaps delay the inevitable. As I stated to a good friend of mine regarding the conversations I had with my new friend Dan, 1) My points were never marginalized. 2)I was (somehow!) never told I was wrong 3)(oh this name thing is going to get precarious. lol. K. For sake of simplicity, Dan, as in Dan I've known a year is "Dan". Dan I met at the party on Friday will be "Danny". There.) Danny listened. And I listened to him. There was no complex he exhibited that said he had to always be the one who was right, and he was closed off from anyone else's view point. He didn't feel any burning desire to play Devil's Advocate with me, either. He and I seemed content listening and being listened to. God, we talked about everything. History, European politics, Philosophy, Psychology, Religion, Anime, Gaming, Literature, The art of satire and sarcasm. The fucked up world of dating. Everything.
Danny truly is a comforting person. Just being around him put me at ease. Maybe it was the insight or wisdom he brought forth to the situation, or maybe it was because he made me feel like what I was saying, was worth listening to. THAT'S an amazing feeling. He's a friend of Nuiance's and Chris'. Which, in my opinion spoke volumes about his character before I really started to talk to him.
So, we walk home and continue to talk. We finally make it to Towers, exchange SNs, and he journy's forth to his realm. I really look forward to talking to him again. But then again, of course he wins, because he danced with me to Affermation and Hangin By a Moment. So, there you have it. hehe.
In short, I am so glad I went to that party. He left reportedly feeling the same. It was... a TRULY lovely night.
Onwards to Saturday. I go home with Matt. We meet up with Jonny and saw The Grduge. *cringes* how stupid. How truly stupid. That movie makes baby Jesus cry. Yea dude. No.
But that's alright. We get back, and hold a small Samhain celebration. Call upon ancestors, give thanks for the year, banish fears, ask to learn lessons of our failures, request guidance, create spirit protectors, lots of cleansing of any negativity that seemed to cling to us, memories of certain bipedial critters we care to forget, illwill, whatever. Its all gone now. The we read cards... curious to know what it is that may be in store for us this coming future. Tomorrow the year will be new. And tonight will be trick-or-treating. Which will be great fun. More on that after it happens. :) Fare Thee Well, my bright stars! And happy New Year
It's been so long since I've touched
So long since I wanted
Then you made me laugh
And my heart opened
I want you to find me charming and wise
I just want you to find me
Somewhere here inside
I barely know you
We've been sort of friends
So what if I called you and called you again
What would I tell you
Where would I begin
Please forgive me
If I don't know what to do
It's an old fire
This familiar desire
But my skin is painfully new
There's a light in my window
It shines all night long
In the morning my coffee
Is sweet but it's strong
I carefully reach out from behind these walls
I'll take a deep breath and give you a call
Hello how are you
Not much at all
Lost in this hole
That has ripped through my soul
I unlock this secret inside
What should I think
I've had too much to drink
As my mind and my body collide
Ain't it crazy
For a moment there
This felt just like dying
But now I see that something inside
Is coming alive
Ain't it crazy
No use running from a revolution
I just surrender to this evolution
Heal me lift me
Take me to the other side
Amazing grace
Has touched my face
And the sweet sound doesn't lie
Ain't it crazy
For a moment there
I just gave up trying
But now I see
You can let the light in
You can begin again
Ain't it crazy
I lay me down in this sweet perfection
I am a witness to my resurrection
Heal me lift me
Take me to the waterside
Drop me in let me swim
Let everyone know
I'll be coming home again
Make no mistake
I'm wide-awake
Ain't it crazy
Heal me lift me
Take me to the other side
I'll take what I've earned
These lessons I've learned
I'm ready for the ride
Heal me lift me
Take me and my soul will fly
My battered heart will make a new start
Let everyone know
I'll be coming home again
Heal me lift me
Take me to the waterside
Drop me in
Come on and watch me swim
Let everyone know
I'll be coming home again
Thursday. Now this was something special. But then again, when ISN'T seeing the Warrens, special? Lorraine and Tony gave an amazing talk, as usual. The slides were grand, and of course, the stories, the film clips, everything. The very energy in the auditorium. It was packed, by the way. An amazing turn out. We were very (*very*) close to the goings on... like three rows away ;) Again, another evening with wonderful people. Dan, Matt, and Joe. Well, wonderful aside from the fact that Joe, for some reason or another, just loves tormenting me. We can discuss his cigarette disarmament tactics and human pong another day though. lol
Alright, and here we go! So, Matt and I go to this wicked fucking party on Friday hosted by a lovely young lady known through QUAD and AQUA. We showed up at the RC to hitch a ride with Mikey. While there, I met a boffersmith, named Will. He and I are traveling forth to a hardware store to obtain the materials needed to make my own boffer sword. (But in retrospect now, yes, I'd like one because they're fun, but not for the reasons I originally thought I wanted them. To those original reasons, fuck that noise. Give me a fucking break. That was the silliest thing I've ever heard suggested. Save it. But enough of that. If you don't know what I'm talking about, good. It'll make your head hurt.) So, in any event, we go to this party and I'm just being a little dance-floor harlot and loving it. Techno is beautiful stuff. Here's to my darlings who I danced with. Especially Venus. You were awesome!
So, I'm walking around, after aquiring a beer, and I see this fellow dressed as Death. He and I begin to talk. Any man who can quote Voltaire can spend as much time as he wishes with me. He was one of the most intelligent people I've ever been privilaged to a conversation with. And we talked for hours. Talked, laughed, danced... for hours. And because I didn't want to see the evening end, I suggested we walk home together, just to... perhaps delay the inevitable. As I stated to a good friend of mine regarding the conversations I had with my new friend Dan, 1) My points were never marginalized. 2)I was (somehow!) never told I was wrong 3)(oh this name thing is going to get precarious. lol. K. For sake of simplicity, Dan, as in Dan I've known a year is "Dan". Dan I met at the party on Friday will be "Danny". There.) Danny listened. And I listened to him. There was no complex he exhibited that said he had to always be the one who was right, and he was closed off from anyone else's view point. He didn't feel any burning desire to play Devil's Advocate with me, either. He and I seemed content listening and being listened to. God, we talked about everything. History, European politics, Philosophy, Psychology, Religion, Anime, Gaming, Literature, The art of satire and sarcasm. The fucked up world of dating. Everything.
Danny truly is a comforting person. Just being around him put me at ease. Maybe it was the insight or wisdom he brought forth to the situation, or maybe it was because he made me feel like what I was saying, was worth listening to. THAT'S an amazing feeling. He's a friend of Nuiance's and Chris'. Which, in my opinion spoke volumes about his character before I really started to talk to him.
So, we walk home and continue to talk. We finally make it to Towers, exchange SNs, and he journy's forth to his realm. I really look forward to talking to him again. But then again, of course he wins, because he danced with me to Affermation and Hangin By a Moment. So, there you have it. hehe.
In short, I am so glad I went to that party. He left reportedly feeling the same. It was... a TRULY lovely night.
Onwards to Saturday. I go home with Matt. We meet up with Jonny and saw The Grduge. *cringes* how stupid. How truly stupid. That movie makes baby Jesus cry. Yea dude. No.
But that's alright. We get back, and hold a small Samhain celebration. Call upon ancestors, give thanks for the year, banish fears, ask to learn lessons of our failures, request guidance, create spirit protectors, lots of cleansing of any negativity that seemed to cling to us, memories of certain bipedial critters we care to forget, illwill, whatever. Its all gone now. The we read cards... curious to know what it is that may be in store for us this coming future. Tomorrow the year will be new. And tonight will be trick-or-treating. Which will be great fun. More on that after it happens. :) Fare Thee Well, my bright stars! And happy New Year
It's been so long since I've touched
So long since I wanted
Then you made me laugh
And my heart opened
I want you to find me charming and wise
I just want you to find me
Somewhere here inside
I barely know you
We've been sort of friends
So what if I called you and called you again
What would I tell you
Where would I begin
Please forgive me
If I don't know what to do
It's an old fire
This familiar desire
But my skin is painfully new
There's a light in my window
It shines all night long
In the morning my coffee
Is sweet but it's strong
I carefully reach out from behind these walls
I'll take a deep breath and give you a call
Hello how are you
Not much at all
Lost in this hole
That has ripped through my soul
I unlock this secret inside
What should I think
I've had too much to drink
As my mind and my body collide
Ain't it crazy
For a moment there
This felt just like dying
But now I see that something inside
Is coming alive
Ain't it crazy
No use running from a revolution
I just surrender to this evolution
Heal me lift me
Take me to the other side
Amazing grace
Has touched my face
And the sweet sound doesn't lie
Ain't it crazy
For a moment there
I just gave up trying
But now I see
You can let the light in
You can begin again
Ain't it crazy
I lay me down in this sweet perfection
I am a witness to my resurrection
Heal me lift me
Take me to the waterside
Drop me in let me swim
Let everyone know
I'll be coming home again
Make no mistake
I'm wide-awake
Ain't it crazy
Heal me lift me
Take me to the other side
I'll take what I've earned
These lessons I've learned
I'm ready for the ride
Heal me lift me
Take me and my soul will fly
My battered heart will make a new start
Let everyone know
I'll be coming home again
Heal me lift me
Take me to the waterside
Drop me in
Come on and watch me swim
Let everyone know
I'll be coming home again