New lj ______ohs0posh

add. <3

Theres a lot..

( vacation?/cruise?/DEATH )

And now it looks like I've been rolling around in mud.  You told me to go wash my face. Well you said it was true and I said it was okay.  Its' not right, but it's okay.  & I wont leave. & I wont give up. I'm begging you not to leave.  Well I had this grotesque thought. Do you know I'd lay my fingers on my dresser and tell someone to hit?  I'd give ( Read more... )

So I deleted all of my entries where somehow I could be "getting attention" from people. In my case, my friends telling me they care about me. But that seemed to upset someone.

dude i was just watching the new britney spears video. & the music is gwen stefani and the video is Jennifer Lopez. Its shit. Its horrible..and what the fuck..? She has a guitar? No.

just tell me what i have to do to make you want me and not her.

because im obviously doing something wrong.

im bored..really bored.

( when we were younger )

i could apologize a thousand times. but i dont think it would get me anywhere this time. youve made it quite clear im not needed now. and please dont lie to me. because even though i will know you are, well ill make up excuses for you. ive coaxed myself into believeing you one too many times.

and youve read what i had to say. you were amazed but ( Read more... )

ive never felt this sick.

And as she looks off the side of the ship she thinks to herself, we're heading in the same place. Theres nothing but nothing; nothing but a vast openess ahead. She feels bad for wasting this life, someone else could have done something so much more with this time. She feels tears regretfully letting her know shes still here. One more look ahead, ( Read more... )