Im not as depressed today as I was yesterday... I am still majorly depressed, but I am not to the point of doing something stupid. I have sort of accepted the fact that it is not going to happen, but I do not think that my heart has understood that yet. Maybe I just need some time to myself, just to enjoy the beauty of life..... yeah right... ( Read more... )

I have just realized, now that I know there is no chance in hell, what it is that drew me towards her. It was the fact that no matter what kind of fucked up mood I was in, she would always be able to comfort me... Whether or not she knows it, she was the only comfort I have had in my life, not to mention the only happieness, in the past month or ( Read more... )

This is a section of a conversation between me (runandbefree) and the girl that I like (sharpcheddar110). We were talking about how persistant I am with things and this is where it lead.

run and be free: ok, one final question for you tonight.

run and be free: Should I continue to try for what I desire, (this would be her, for all of those who ( Read more... )

I am home again, I already got suckered into helping Joe with his car. I am finally getting to use my new keyboard with the computer. It works good, except that the shift key is touchy, well, it seems to be getting better now. Perhaps it just needed time to get used to me. Anyways, I am home, if I'm not online, call me. Bye Bye for now.

Well, Eric just left, he came over and brought some JD Blackberry Jack and some SKYY Blue. I only had two bottles, but I am feeling the crap anyways, not majorly, but a tiny buzz, that is what I get for being the good kid my whole life. It really felt good to vent out and just hang out. I will be in bed withen a half hour or so, but until then, ( Read more... )

I am away from home for the weekend, it is actually saturday, and I left yesterday. I finally got the wireless network set up here, now I'm jealous... I want one. Nobody is home at the moment, it seems so calm. I am probabally going to go on a hike in a bit, see what I can dig up around foxcroft's hills. Artie invited me to go to the boat ( Read more... )

I am at home now... its not all that bad... Ive got my room, my music, my phone, and my slow internet connection, but I already miss being able to hang out w/ everyone all the time. I have a feeling that this computer is going to become my new best friend for a while. When I left Kelly's house today, I told Rose that she is the main reason that I ( Read more... )

I kinda jumped to conclusions in my last entry... Sorry. My emotions got the best of me. I can honestly say that I do have a few friends that have not stabbed me in the back. Anyways... I just got home from work,I'm going to go hiking, then im going to get in the shower.

At this exact moment, I may be just jumping to conclusions, but in the other room, my "best friend" is flirting with the girl who he knows that I like.... FUCKING BACKSTABBING PEOPLE

Have you ever been in the situation where it seems that not a single person would notice if you fell of the end of the planet. I feel like that from time to time, but my friends really help me there. But the one feeling that I can not seem to get rid of, is the depression that I have been feeling quite often lately. Those of you who know what I ( Read more... )