Comments | thenobodypoet: on egoism, kafka, relationships, & regret.

thenobodypoet

on egoism, kafka, relationships, & regret.

Jul 11, 2009 00:53

Last year I dated briefly an incredible girl(who is, no doubt, reading this.) She was really great. To this day she remains one of the most wonderful people( people, not just women) I've had the pleasure of meeting in my short life. I kind of lost my bearings when I met her. I wanted to do anything and everything I could do to turn it into a ( Read more... )

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thenobodypoet July 13 2009, 08:46:01 UTC

very poignant. it isn't like a game at all - which was the hardest part for me to deal with. I like to play games (literally, as in board games and whatnot), and any time something goes wrong in my life my first thought process is A) What went wrong B) What do I do wrong and C) How can I rectify the situation. Relationships are so much different than that, there are no goals/no objects, only the wanting the see if you can be together.

somethingrandm July 13 2009, 04:59:16 UTC

This entry was heartbreaking. In part because I know the girl to whom you are referring, and how determined she is. And how sometimes, she has a tendency to get in way over her head.

But don't think that it "failed" because you did anything wrong or weren't/aren't good enough. At the end of the entry when you say she deserves a much greater man than you... that's not true. Sometimes things don't work out NOT because someone's not good enough but because they are simply not the right person, or the timing is wrong. It happens, unfortunately.

thenobodypoet July 13 2009, 08:51:33 UTC

you're right, of course. I hope it was apparent in the entry that what you just said is the conclusion I finally was able to realize. like Hannah said, it isn't a game, no win/lose(i'll save you the Ryan Adams quote, but know that I was thinking it ;) )

And the part at the end, that's just simple truth. It doesn't have anything to do with the situation or my experience with her - she DOES deserve someone better than me. I have plenty of confidence in myself, but I'm also a realist.

thenobodypoet July 13 2009, 11:27:15 UTC

I feel the need to clarify my rhetoric ( ... )

somethingrandm July 13 2009, 15:40:36 UTC

Please forgive her for the weirdness at the leg-touching.

She has issues.

And yeah, NO ONE is better than you...