If you're intent on never being with me, as lover nor friend, then at least let me say what I want to say, and at least try to accept it as the truth.
Don't trivialise what we were, because that hurts more than anything. You could fucking kill me and it would hurt less than that. Because no matter what you say or believe I know it was more than that, and I know I love you. I loved you. Because it's the sort of thing that never fades no matter how much you want it to. I wish I didn't feel the way I did, because that would make it all easier. I wish I could throw away memories like you seem to be able to do, but I can't
( ... )
You don't get what I'm saying are you? I fucking love you and being around you without actually being with you hurts. Having us fuck would straight out strike me dead.
You're making it so easy, things getting in the way, yeah right, I'm sorry you don't have your dick in check enough to have a lasting relationship.
And if I ever meant as much to you as you want me to believe this wouldn't be over, we'd be building that house by now and be content, be happy.
It takes two to build a relationship Matt, and relationships mean sacrifices. I was willing to do that, but you weren't, you bailed out. Think about it, I hope you're content with your fucks and half assed love, I doubt you even know what love really means.
You say you care, if caring means breaking my heart twice than you're more screwed in the head than everybody says.
Yesss dinner. What do you think of slumping in front of some stupid movie, cuddled up, listening for the baby with Chinese? Friday'll be more glamorous ;]
Though, with the help of the babysitter, I'm not sure we'll get out of the bedroom... but we can only cross our fingers.
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To: Zacky Baker.
If you're intent on never being with me, as lover nor friend, then at least let me say what I want to say, and at least try to accept it as the truth.
Don't trivialise what we were, because that hurts more than anything. You could fucking kill me and it would hurt less than that. Because no matter what you say or believe I know it was more than that, and I know I love you. I loved you. Because it's the sort of thing that never fades no matter how much you want it to. I wish I didn't feel the way I did, because that would make it all easier. I wish I could throw away memories like you seem to be able to do, but I can't ( ... )
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To: Matthew Sanders
You don't get what I'm saying are you? I fucking love you and being around you without actually being with you hurts. Having us fuck would straight out strike me dead.
You're making it so easy, things getting in the way, yeah right, I'm sorry you don't have your dick in check enough to have a lasting relationship.
And if I ever meant as much to you as you want me to believe this wouldn't be over, we'd be building that house by now and be content, be happy.
It takes two to build a relationship Matt, and relationships mean sacrifices. I was willing to do that, but you weren't, you bailed out. Think about it, I hope you're content with your fucks and half assed love, I doubt you even know what love really means.
You say you care, if caring means breaking my heart twice than you're more screwed in the head than everybody says.
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To: Matt
If you'd bothered to turn up you would have got one!
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To: Roger Federer.
Don't blame me for having an exciting, exhilarating life.
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To: Matthew Sanders, Roger Federer
Sounds like a plan to me. What do you guys say about tonight or tomorrow? I had plans last night besides, worked out better this way.
T
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To: Trent Reznor, Roger Federer.
Bring it. I had plans, too, so it's all good.
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To: Roger Federer, Matthew Sanders
If we can swing it, let's try to grab a drink tonight after work. I'm down.
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From: Lovemuffin
Dinner?! Omg, yay. I'm getting us a babysitter so we can go out on Friday, to have dinner. <3
Tyler misses you. <3
I love you more.
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To: Pumpkin Bunny.
Yesss dinner. What do you think of slumping in front of some stupid movie, cuddled up, listening for the baby with Chinese? Friday'll be more glamorous ;]
Though, with the help of the babysitter, I'm not sure we'll get out of the bedroom... but we can only cross our fingers.
Hah, aw, I miss him too.
And nuh-uh.
P.S - I gotcha a present.
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From: R.
Come find me and I'll give you all the cuddles you need and more.
<3
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To: My best friend The Suddenly Fluffy Male =P
And more? That sounds promising...
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