smile till u collapse

[theonewhocried]

ugh..SO PISSED..way to come in and ruin things ONCE AGAIN..and to others that just dont inform me..apparently tons of ppl knew...sure just expect me to be great..FINE..i wasnt..maybe if u fucking checked first..might have been appreciative...clearly no one really gets it...clearly i cant really make anyone get it..im not a fucking child...dont

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[miss_you_love__]

...what happened??

Cry till you stand-up

[myhero_ff]

Alright so, let me just start off by saying i checked with ppl if you were gonna be there and they never told me anything they named every1 else but you. What did i ruin, i got in there, said hey to every1, then went outside with hardy. i did NOT intentionally come to chris' JUST to piss you off, if i wanted to do that, i'd do that every1 weekend, if not, every day. Good you are happy with Ryan, im glad, ryan is a good guy, good for you. Also, when you say that im an asshole for not telling you that i was coming, oh man, i am TOTALLY sorry i didnt kno you were gonna be there. If i knew, i would have been sure to call, fax, mail, and e-mail yoou to notify you. Terribly sorry cristina. I for one thought that last night w as fine, bcuz sure it was awkward as fuck, but no bitching occured so that is a plus. Why do you hate the fact that your friends (also my friends) still love me the same? They have nothing to do with what ever happened between, other than just being there for us to talk to. To end this, I would like give shout-outs to

[theonewhocried]

cry till i stand up? I DID! and u didnt have ANYTHING to do with it...u dont know HALF of what i went through..not just all ur fault but u made everything a billion times worse...eally dont know who the fuck u are...AND just to say this before i forget..this is my livejournal..i posted it directed at u and a few others, but i did not say it TO YOU...u shut me out of ur life, so why do u read my entries? still somewhat interested in how im doing? seeing if i killed myself yet..like WHAT..are u just waiting for some information to be posted that u can somehow use against me or use to make urself seem like u know something about me and/or ppl i post about. i really dont know wut to say cuz I was the one that wanted to fix shit so bad..and figure it out so we didnt have stupid awkwardness and bad feelings when we're in the same room..and YOU DIDNT WANT THAT..so thats not my fault..yet again u shut me down, so i shut u out more and decided its just easier to make myself hate you...cuz at least then i can only get angry and not so fucking

[myhero_ff]

what are you saying "picking sides" i was just say hey to ppl, thats all.

[theonewhocried]

oh..p.s..adding onto the 'in regards to ur name listing'...maybe u wouldnt find it necessary to give 'shout outs' to them if u made an effort to be their friend and mabye called them more than when it was 'convenient' for u..at least i can show them my friendship all the time unlike u who chooses to throw that away along with me..maybe u should learn how to treat ur friends even when u have g/f.

[myhero_ff]

man, even though i dont see or talk to my friends every single day, they still know that we're cool cuz of everything we've been through, and if it were true that i dont talk to them, then i wouldnt say anything right now, but we do talk still and im still cool with every1 that i truly think gives a shit about me. Dont tell me how to run my shit, even tho i really dont need to explain myself, i only came on to your LJ cuz some1 told me that there was some yelling and swearing headed my way, so i decided to check it out and after reading it, i felt like replying, thats all:). and just to let you know, i havent been on LJ since my last post which was like end of sept.

[theonewhocried]

fine..reply about the less important things i said..my point was not soley about our friends..but really what do u expect from me? where the hell in that comment did i TELL u how to run ur 'shit'??OH yea..i didnt...and obviously theres someone looking at my livejournal..commenting about you and i..and since u havnt been on here in awhile u might wanna check out the 16 comments in my october 24 survey post..with someone on 'your side' posting shit about me. NONE of this was my fault..ive only ever wanted to fix it..and u promised me one day that u would..and clearly u lied and/or just think its too risky and hard to attempt.