I guess I've finally decided that using instant messenger isn't such a bad thing. Even if I do rely on it because I don't have a social life, there are some people on there I know that aren't really comfortable with using phones, and I would be alienating them. I just wish people, including myself, wouldn't have to hide behind a screen and would ( Read more... )

Ok, now on to specific details about the Calibretto show. I was really hesitant to going at first, but I decided I didn't really have anything to loose, except five bucks. I'm glad that it turned out that it was definitely worth it. It was good enough alone just to see everybody again, but even better that a few spent time to come up and talk to ( Read more... )

I luckily remembered just in time about the Calibretto show tonight, and I decided to go. I will talk about how that was later, but for right now I want to mention some things I noticed about my interaction with people tonight. First of all, it is important to note that tonight I had a huge amount of social interaction, compared to my usual day ( Read more... )

I find it odd that my two greatest fears are ( Read more... )

Once again, I was grounded from the computer for most of this week. It wasn't really my fault this time though. I've actually been making an effort to get to sleep on time and go to school. It's just that my dad got insanely mad at me Wednesday morning, just because I woke up late. I still had time to get ready and make it to school though, but ( Read more... )

So I have left this local music "scene" because I want time alone to figure myself out. I'm trying to solve my problems within myself and not resort to going to shows to feel like I'm accepted or cool. I just want to go to shows because I want to see the bands, not the people there. It would be different if I actually hung out with the people I ( Read more... )

I was just thinking how emotionally unstable I must sound to anyone who reads this journal. Sorry if I scare or worry anyone, I'm just being honest. I don't seem to hide much here, I tell it how it is. Oh well though, this is the real me, something unknown to the the majority of people I come in contact with. What's the use of writing in an ( Read more... )

Well, today was actually a good day. I think last night I was just having some sort of nervous break-down. It seems like when all of my unsolved problems add up over a period of time, there gets to be a point where I can't take anymore and give into depression. The problems still remain, it's just my choice to look at them with a very negative ( Read more... )

My favorite movie quote, which is from Donnie Darko (my favorite movie), seems to have more meaning now than it ever has ( Read more... )

I finally got my internet connection back, I spent my 4 day weekend doing absolutely nothing. Tomorrow is the first day of the second semester of my senior year. I hope it doesn't go all downhill from here, I've been lucky to do pretty good as far as my grades are concerned this year. Next year, I'll be still in Muncie, still living at home, and ( Read more... )