Comments | theoriginal1: I've got a confession, my friend, I'm your fool

theoriginal1

I've got a confession, my friend, I'm your fool

Oct 27, 2006 11:10

Take this.

Take it from me.

This heart is only meant to cause me pain.

I talk of ghosts. I am the ghost. I watch others lives go by and scream to be apart of life again.

You want to know something so pathetic? I think about you before I fall asleep, I daydream about you in class. Basically every conscious second I am thinking about you. I imagine what ( Read more... )

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animephreakboi October 28 2006, 16:43:28 UTC

You know that I don't hate you. I love you more than anything. I don't want to hurt you. You don't know how sorry I feel knowing that I do hurt you, or as you say up there that I don't hurt you. I know you feel horrible. I want to be able to do something about it. But I know that while you are there and I am here, I cannot do anything. A call won't make you extremely happy. Neither do texts or instant messages. A physical entity will make you happy. But for now, all I am is a bunch of one and zeros turned into electronic characters on a CRT monitor. I can't help you the way you want to be helped until I am well out of High school. You don't know how much I wish I could. I hurt without you. The other day, I watched the end of Final Fantasy X when Tidus disappears and Yuna finds out that he dies and she tries to give him one last hug, but he already turned into a ghost. I teared up and cried for five minutes. I miss you more than anything and I wish that I could be with you again ( ... )

animephreakboi October 28 2006, 16:45:18 UTC

oops.... "I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING."

theoriginal1 October 28 2006, 17:31:14 UTC

...a call or an im or a txt would help a lot more than just doing nothing. silence is worse than random conversations, silence implies indifference and indifference is worse than hate. What would you think if I didn't speak to you for a month? (i know it hasn't been that long, but I figure you have so much going on you would need a longer time period to notice..)
This is what I said on gtalk 'i realize i'm breaking my own rule, but i dont want this to be fruitless. I'm still awake, and I plan on being up for another hour. Though with my luck this will be night you decide to go straight to bed and not check your computer' I wanted to talk to you so bad..I stayed up until 2 in the morning waiting for you. Which would be 12, not 11..

as for the presents, keep your money. I don't anything to remind me that it's been a year.

Danny how could I forget what we've gone through? How could I forget why I cry?