did anyone see that programme about the NME awards on channel 4 last night? it was looking at the nominations for the best band category, and they had a panel of tv personalities etc talking about each nominee. edith bowman, graham coxon, mairead QoNz (i hope that's a wig).. pete doherty. the libertines are nominated. graham coxon talked about how much he loved up the bracket,and how important it was that the libertines came about when they did. peter was asked whether he would go up to collect the award if the libertines won. he said something along the lines of "if we were going to reconcile, i'm not sure it would be the time or place... but then we've done everything else in public, so why not? ...i'll bring a guitar along, just in case.." ,he looked close to tears and, oh i don't know, it was really moving. i've not felt that way about the libertines in a long time, it's so hard to really care anymore. i was worried that the magic had gone- but i played up the bracket and it's still there, if you look for it.
a year ago today i went to the zanzibar to see what i was expecting to be pete doherty perform solo for the first time. it turned out to be the libertines. i made my way to the front and stood on the barrier to watch nearly the whole thing. i don't remember what they played or how long for, all i remember is them totally taking my breath away.. i couldn't look away from the stage because i was so i awe of them. sentimental as that sounds, it's true. that was the last time i think i really cared about that band, they had that effect on me. before it all became a news story that you couldn't really see past. but i know i'll always remember them for those little moments they gave me. that can never change.
february 15th, 2004
the scene is obscene, time'll strip it away... a year and a day