my god i am the most indecisive person on the face of the planet....
I am blinded by love, if thats what it is....
I dont know what I want or what is good for me......
1 seccond from changing my future and i end in and blank space of nothingness.....

Is my life crashing down on me or is it turning in some odd unexpected direction that will turn out for the better...or will it be the same cycle....why do i never know these things when i need to. Why is advice so easy to get, and words so easy to plan out, yet all of them feel wrong, no matter how justified they should be. I guess love ( Read more... )

So......for the first day since the world cup began, I slept in till 9AM and skipped the first game of the day. However, I did wake in time for the England vs. T and T and Sweden vs. Paraguay I think. I've decided that England is a brilliant team but they suck at being a team....they couldnt manage to get a goal untill the 80 somting minute when ( Read more... )

SOMEONE HELP MEEEEE ( Read more... )

wooooooheeeeeee.....I just had my last official lesson with Bruce...we may fit in one more before China, but maybe not. Either way, HE FINALLY SOLD ME HIS A! He got his new leblanc set last week, so 1980's A customized by Hite and played in the SFS by Brandenberg is miiinnneeee. I have yet to purchase a case. Bruces Buffet Poucette style case ( Read more... )

The oh so lovely FAFSA that gave me shitty financial aide also believes that every penny i have saved in my life is what i can afford to pay for the first year of college, even though i was intending on using it to fund other endeavors related to education. SO....i either have to hide it or spend it. Yesterday, this brilliant idea came to me ( Read more... )

dinner=fantastic

prom=fantastic

first time drunk=fantastic

hotel and dennys=fantastic

hangover on little sleep while pretending to be fine for parents=not so fantastic

After yet another pathetic loss to the Oilers, fellow hockey fan "Paul the Security Guard", who essentially guards nothing, greeted me with the line: "We sure showed them didnt we!",reminding me yet again that, a)the sharks need me to coach them, and b)I love sarcasm. Whether witty and intelligent, or childish and dumb, I love it. In fact, it ( Read more... )

Ahhh........2 AP's down, 3 to go, yet astronomy is still my most painful class. I have some damned project due tomorrow, and with practicing all night and ER, it just might not get done. Owell....I skipped service learning a seccond week, and will again for AP next week. The falling apart will continue. I think I'm taking monday morning off too ( Read more... )