i got a new icon...it fits me..

this weekdn was okay, meet w/ a n old friend, set up two ppl which hnow love each other....idk lifes gay...im thinking suicidle agian...but idk i just need somone to talk to, really bad...oh and my rents r fighting...ummtoday i worked out a lot...oh and one of my firend s talked to my one friend i talked about in my other lj so if u wanna find out ( Read more... )

it hurts to think that somone dosent care...okay get this and tell me what u think okay, this person will be anonymous, but any ways, she (okay well u get to know that its a girl) said i could talk to her when ever i needed to and for example i needed to talk to her and she said shell talk to me after school, bc shes staying after. so i go to look ( Read more... )

dude right now this is so fucvking sweet!!! my rents r gone, so is my bro. homw alone!!!! SCORE!!! the music is blasting, im like so happy, i was positve all day. but ne was its like so like cool here no ones yelling just me and the music....and no one yelling at me for doiong somthing wrong and to go do the dishes...dude im so relaxed, i needed ( Read more... )

yeah today is like sucking cock really bad, but i dont want to dwel on the negative so im just going to think of somthing else i really need to get my mind of the negative adn go to the positive...im getting better at it...

so umm yeah, im going to ask my mom if i can go to the march 12th used and more at the rave, i think she let me if im going w/ ( Read more... )

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half day was cool...i showed the cops around, and it turns out that officer dudash came w/ officer leach, and officer dudash was trhe cop that chased me when i was holding the paintball bag....but we joked around adn had fun,,,,i couldnt wach anuther 45min speach by them so i left and walked aroung for 45 min w/ briannea...it was cool we went to ( Read more... )

this is going to be random...

today was wired like on monday i was in a great mood (some resons which will not be names)and didnt think aobut suicide at all...thats really good for me... then the next day i was in an okay mood adn only thought about suicide once..then idk about wend. but like today i was so freaking depressed and i was really thing ( Read more... )

its n ot funny how bad i hate my temper, i always let it get a hold of me. there r only a few ppl whoi know my true rage and is not cool..i need to find away to control it b4 it comes out...and its commming out...so dose ne one know of somehow i can contole it?!?! oh and here this thig.... ~thepickinator~

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hey everyone, this weekend totaly blow so much right now i was sipost to go  to a friends house and then to a party (a good one no, drinking or drugs), and sleep over, but just bc my mom is sick she said no, right when hse said that i was like wtf mom i have so much going on today and she was like well u didint tell me yesterday night an i was like ( Read more... )