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God. This is just stupid. I know it.
I used to think Chad didn't know how to deal with people, or didn't know or like getting out. But he's been being a stubborn ass lately, and being bitchy. Or maybe I'm bitchy. Sometimes I can't tell whose to blame anymore.
But today Chad said something that killed it for me. There was a 6.5 earthquake near by. About 150 miles away. And the managers at our store this morning were taking about how we might be sending some people over to help the k-mart over there. Send about 8 people and take all the generators and batteries. Help the store and customers, as they get back on their feet. The whole trip would be paid for.
I would go... but I haven't been asked yet and I would have to hitch a ride with someone. Chad's response was "I probably wont be going because I don't work tomorrow." I then tired to explain to him that it wouldn't matter. If you went your schedule would go out the window and you would basically just be working when you went there. I also commented on how he wouldn't get his usual friday off either. To which he would replied "Oh no no.. that wouldn't be happening. I told them I would rather quit then work Friday."
Ok. Chad doesn't work Fridays because of religious reasons. Friday is his sabbath. So from sun up to sun down he doesn't do anything. Which is funny because he's worked Friday before. Ha.
I tried to explain, getting all annoyed like saying "You'd be there to help. It wouldn't matter. They would just as you to work and help." Of course Chad sticks with his not working thing, and goes on about how when he started working there he told them he would quit before he would work a Friday. I tried to tell him that wasn't the point but I got frustrated because he wasn't listening. And I didn't want to get into a fight over something kinda small.
You know I could understand sticking with his religion. Awesome for him. But... like I said its not the point. Your not going there for yourself. Sure the trip would be paid for, but you would be going to help people. Things are shaken up over there, and they might ask our store for help. Why? We're closest. I'm young, I don't have kids that need to be taken care of or anything overly pressing. So is Chad. We would be perfect. (the main reason I don't think we would be going, is because A. they are probably looking for day time people. Ones that work with customers more, and B. I'm the only person is softlines again... and we don't have a car... although I'm sure we could easily hitch a ride with someone.)
But Chad says no. His reason being religion. So... because of religion you wont help someone? Because of religion you can't show kindness? I don't get that. I mean I thought Jesus preached love and kindness, and helping people. I just... don't get it.
Then it hit me. And oh my god it makes so much sense. Chad is a self-centered ass. Chad doesn't care about other people other than himself. No... when I say this some of you are going to hear me in your head yelling and bitching. But right now... I'm more sad than anything. Chad doesn't have friends because he doesn't want them. He just wants to care about himself, and stay on his computer. His computer makes him happy. Thats all that matters. He never really goes out of his way to help anyone. Sure he dose the dishes or takes out the trash sometimes without being told, but in the end simple house chores are for himself too. But when has he really ever done something for someone else that doesn't benefit him as well.
And its not that he's one of those rude, selfish, self-centered bitches. That go out of their way to hurt others so things can be about them. With Chad its basic, if it doesn't have to do with him, than he's going to be on his computer. If he really doesn't get anything out of something, he wont do it. Its just basic for him. Its about him.
Wow.
I just... when I think about it. It makes sense to me. Hearing about his life, his past, seeing the way he lives. The way he others, me even, the way he really can't take a joke, but gets butt hurt when someone else doesn't let him slide on one of his (which omg! You just bitched me out for messing with you now you act all but hurt because you wont let go of my foot.Douche! (ok that was bitchyness. XD)) He doesn't really care about other people. Just himself. And what makes chad happy is his computer.
If thats the case then... I pity him.
I actually hope I'm wrong. And that I'm just bitchy and tired and taking it out on him.
I don't want to be around Chad.
If I keep watching and seeing that he really is that self-centered. I don't know if I would want to be his friend anymore...
Like I said... I really hope I'm just being a bitch.
I used to think Chad didn't know how to deal with people, or didn't know or like getting out. But he's been being a stubborn ass lately, and being bitchy. Or maybe I'm bitchy. Sometimes I can't tell whose to blame anymore.
But today Chad said something that killed it for me. There was a 6.5 earthquake near by. About 150 miles away. And the managers at our store this morning were taking about how we might be sending some people over to help the k-mart over there. Send about 8 people and take all the generators and batteries. Help the store and customers, as they get back on their feet. The whole trip would be paid for.
I would go... but I haven't been asked yet and I would have to hitch a ride with someone. Chad's response was "I probably wont be going because I don't work tomorrow." I then tired to explain to him that it wouldn't matter. If you went your schedule would go out the window and you would basically just be working when you went there. I also commented on how he wouldn't get his usual friday off either. To which he would replied "Oh no no.. that wouldn't be happening. I told them I would rather quit then work Friday."
Ok. Chad doesn't work Fridays because of religious reasons. Friday is his sabbath. So from sun up to sun down he doesn't do anything. Which is funny because he's worked Friday before. Ha.
I tried to explain, getting all annoyed like saying "You'd be there to help. It wouldn't matter. They would just as you to work and help." Of course Chad sticks with his not working thing, and goes on about how when he started working there he told them he would quit before he would work a Friday. I tried to tell him that wasn't the point but I got frustrated because he wasn't listening. And I didn't want to get into a fight over something kinda small.
You know I could understand sticking with his religion. Awesome for him. But... like I said its not the point. Your not going there for yourself. Sure the trip would be paid for, but you would be going to help people. Things are shaken up over there, and they might ask our store for help. Why? We're closest. I'm young, I don't have kids that need to be taken care of or anything overly pressing. So is Chad. We would be perfect. (the main reason I don't think we would be going, is because A. they are probably looking for day time people. Ones that work with customers more, and B. I'm the only person is softlines again... and we don't have a car... although I'm sure we could easily hitch a ride with someone.)
But Chad says no. His reason being religion. So... because of religion you wont help someone? Because of religion you can't show kindness? I don't get that. I mean I thought Jesus preached love and kindness, and helping people. I just... don't get it.
Then it hit me. And oh my god it makes so much sense. Chad is a self-centered ass. Chad doesn't care about other people other than himself. No... when I say this some of you are going to hear me in your head yelling and bitching. But right now... I'm more sad than anything. Chad doesn't have friends because he doesn't want them. He just wants to care about himself, and stay on his computer. His computer makes him happy. Thats all that matters. He never really goes out of his way to help anyone. Sure he dose the dishes or takes out the trash sometimes without being told, but in the end simple house chores are for himself too. But when has he really ever done something for someone else that doesn't benefit him as well.
And its not that he's one of those rude, selfish, self-centered bitches. That go out of their way to hurt others so things can be about them. With Chad its basic, if it doesn't have to do with him, than he's going to be on his computer. If he really doesn't get anything out of something, he wont do it. Its just basic for him. Its about him.
Wow.
I just... when I think about it. It makes sense to me. Hearing about his life, his past, seeing the way he lives. The way he others, me even, the way he really can't take a joke, but gets butt hurt when someone else doesn't let him slide on one of his (which omg! You just bitched me out for messing with you now you act all but hurt because you wont let go of my foot.Douche! (ok that was bitchyness. XD)) He doesn't really care about other people. Just himself. And what makes chad happy is his computer.
If thats the case then... I pity him.
I actually hope I'm wrong. And that I'm just bitchy and tired and taking it out on him.
I don't want to be around Chad.
If I keep watching and seeing that he really is that self-centered. I don't know if I would want to be his friend anymore...
Like I said... I really hope I'm just being a bitch.