Without question, my daughter Ziyal. But for those among you who might take issue at my characterizing her such, allow me to elaborate
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I lost my mother a few years ago, to cancer, and a few months after she died, so did I. You don't stop, there's no time for love to wear out, only for it to grow stronger. Then my friends ripped me out of that, brought me back, and I was miserable.
My father and I were really close for years, but after my parents separated... he just... after a couple of years, he didn't even pretend anymore. I don't know if he even knows Mom's dead; we were never able to get ahold of him. I remember all the stuff he'd buy me, the souvenirs he'd send me from all the places he visited during his midlife crisis... I didn't want any of it. All I wanted was to feel like he actually loved us.
The only thing she could ever have wanted or needed from you was love. Even now, I'll bet that's all she wants or needs from you, to honor her memory.
The only thing she could ever have wanted or needed from you was love. Even now, I'll bet that's all she wants or needs from you, to honor her memory.*sincerely
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Buffy Summers. Don't let the human duds fool you, I'm... *grin* I'm surprisingly strong.
Wasn't really much in the way of duality, honestly. I'm -- a soldier, I guess you could say, and my death was pretty much the only thing relating to my duty that I'd had control over. Turns out I didn't even have control over that. I was ripped out of the peace and the calm, and everything was violent and hard. I didn't really make it easier on myself, either. Took me a long time to really start dealing with it.
I know about violent and hard. Less about peace and calm, I'm afraid, though spirituality has taught me of that to some degree. I died in fire, which was only fitting, for it was how I had lived, up until that point. I was reborn in fire, and now -- I suppose I'm looking for answers, just like anyone.
I am also a soldier, though now it's a different war. I find I miss the time when the enemy was clear, the Klingons, the Dominion, the Federation. The Bajorans, always.
It is a divine pleasure to make your acquaintance, Ms. Summers. And if there is anything I can do for you -- either on my own behalf, or on behalf of the Pah-Wraiths who have trusted me as their Emissary -- do not hesitate to ask.
I suspect we are kindred souls, you and I. My best to you and the war you are fighting.
He wants to respond to this but is unsure what to say. How does one say sorry for something that can't be undone? An apology won't bring her back no matter how much he wishes it would. So many things he has done that he wishes he could undo...But none of this he says outloud for fear of his guilt getting the better of him once more. Instead he asks the one question that has been on his mind for since his own families deaths.
For whatever reason you have been given the oppertunity to save Tora Naprem and Tora Ziyal. But unfortantly you can only choose one person to save. Who would it be?
It's a question he had found himself asking as of late though for what reason he can't quite explain. Perhaps if possible he can still find some wisdom in his words.
Oh, Ziyal. Without a doubt, it would be my dear Ziyal.
Don't think I have not forgotten that it was you who took her from me, Damar. Don't purport to assume for a single minute that I have forgiven you for that, or that I ever will.
But we all do things we regret, and we all achieve clarity in hindsight. And if Colonel Kira is willing to put the past behind her after what you have done, I can try to do the same. For all that Kira and I disagree on, I have no doubt that she loved Ziyal. And so in this, as in so many other things, I will allow her to be my guide, and I will leave what is past in the past.
But I will ask you not to speak of my daughter again.
Expression though nuetral his eyes give away the guilt.
I would never expect you to forgive me for my actions. Nor would I ever ask that of you. Perhaps it would bring you some peace to know that everything does come full circle. Though your not directly responsible for this, your past alliance with the Dominion has cost me my wife and son.
But as with anything people do change and the past is the past. I will respect your wish and leave the matter as it were.
Pauses before changing subject
On another note I don't suppose you are familar with a Centauri female named Mariel are you?
On the other hand, my good friend, I've noticed you've made a friend among the local population -- well done! I wouldn't put too much stock in what that Human reporter has to say about you (although her comments about me were quite flattering and very much true), and I certainly do not believe you have any intentions of betraying the dear Narn female with whom you have become entangled.
I met the lucky lady at that party some weeks back, and she seemed both lovely and charming. Congratulations, Damar!
Her expression though concerned takes on a curious look as though she were trying to figure him out. Or rather find a way how to use him.
If you don't mind my saying, you sound like you're a man who is above the petty restrictions of race and titles. A most interesting trait to say the least and one that I can appriciate.
I notice you're still in Theatrical Muse but have not posted a topic response in the last four weeks. If you wish to stay in the community, please update your journal or point me to a link where you've answered a topic response previously prior to the 15th March 05.
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My father and I were really close for years, but after my parents separated... he just... after a couple of years, he didn't even pretend anymore. I don't know if he even knows Mom's dead; we were never able to get ahold of him. I remember all the stuff he'd buy me, the souvenirs he'd send me from all the places he visited during his midlife crisis... I didn't want any of it. All I wanted was to feel like he actually loved us.
The only thing she could ever have wanted or needed from you was love. Even now, I'll bet that's all she wants or needs from you, to honor her memory.
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Wasn't really much in the way of duality, honestly. I'm -- a soldier, I guess you could say, and my death was pretty much the only thing relating to my duty that I'd had control over. Turns out I didn't even have control over that. I was ripped out of the peace and the calm, and everything was violent and hard. I didn't really make it easier on myself, either. Took me a long time to really start dealing with it.
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I am also a soldier, though now it's a different war. I find I miss the time when the enemy was clear, the Klingons, the Dominion, the Federation. The Bajorans, always.
It is a divine pleasure to make your acquaintance, Ms. Summers. And if there is anything I can do for you -- either on my own behalf, or on behalf of the Pah-Wraiths who have trusted me as their Emissary -- do not hesitate to ask.
I suspect we are kindred souls, you and I. My best to you and the war you are fighting.
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For whatever reason you have been given the oppertunity to save Tora Naprem and Tora Ziyal. But unfortantly you can only choose one person to save. Who would it be?
It's a question he had found himself asking as of late though for what reason he can't quite explain. Perhaps if possible he can still find some wisdom in his words.
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Don't think I have not forgotten that it was you who took her from me, Damar. Don't purport to assume for a single minute that I have forgiven you for that, or that I ever will.
But we all do things we regret, and we all achieve clarity in hindsight. And if Colonel Kira is willing to put the past behind her after what you have done, I can try to do the same. For all that Kira and I disagree on, I have no doubt that she loved Ziyal. And so in this, as in so many other things, I will allow her to be my guide, and I will leave what is past in the past.
But I will ask you not to speak of my daughter again.
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I would never expect you to forgive me for my actions. Nor would I ever ask that of you. Perhaps it would bring you some peace to know that everything does come full circle. Though your not directly responsible for this, your past alliance with the Dominion has cost me my wife and son.
But as with anything people do change and the past is the past. I will respect your wish and leave the matter as it were.
Pauses before changing subject
On another note I don't suppose you are familar with a Centauri female named Mariel are you?
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*chuckles*
On the other hand, my good friend, I've noticed you've made a friend among the local population -- well done! I wouldn't put too much stock in what that Human reporter has to say about you (although her comments about me were quite flattering and very much true), and I certainly do not believe you have any intentions of betraying the dear Narn female with whom you have become entangled.
I met the lucky lady at that party some weeks back, and she seemed both lovely and charming. Congratulations, Damar!
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I'm sorry for the loss of your daughter.
Her expression though concerned takes on a curious look as though she were trying to figure him out. Or rather find a way how to use him.
If you don't mind my saying, you sound like you're a man who is above the petty restrictions of race and titles. A most interesting trait to say the least and one that I can appriciate.
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response in the last four weeks. If you wish to stay in the community,
please update your journal or point me to a link where you've answered a
topic response previously prior to the 15th March 05.
Regards,
Starkiller
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