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Well this is awkward...
Yeah, so he does think that I still want something. He wants me to get over it. That's really sweet.
I am over it. Well, probably not as much as he is, but I am.
I just miss the feeling of "liking" someone so much and then having that "liking" be reciprocated. It's this feeling that I rarely feel. & it is the most wonderful feeling in the world (except the sweet taste of water after running 1000 suicides, or finally getting to use the restroom after holding it in for six periods at school)
I guess I'm holding on to the hope of that feeling. But I'm not holding on to him. I just maybe miss the thought of him. I know he doesn't hold on as strongly as I do because this relationship meant a lot to me (not that it didn't for him) but it meant more to me than to him, in my opinion. I know he's had other relationships and that's why it's a bit easier for him to let go. But look at it from my point of view. I've never ever had these feelings for anyone. I've never had a boyfriend. I've never held someone's hand. I've never kissed anyone. I've never felt light on my feet when I'm with someone. I've never experienced this lubby dubby feeling. Ever. So to sum it up, he's my first. My first at everything. Almost everything. That's really important to me. It's hard to forget the ones that made a huge impact in your life. It's hard to forget the ones that changed who you are. It's hard to forget the ones that taught you so much about yourself and about life in general. It's hard to forget the ones that made you believe. I love anaphorias and parallelism. But there it is.
I'm really glad that I got to go through this. I learned SO MUCH... maybe too much. It isn't stupid at all. Haha. I sound so dramatic and poetic O_O
Weird. Yes, I just can't shake that feeling off.
But I'm so glad I meant him. Thanks, dude! Really. Just the notion of knowing that your heart is with someone else, or your thoughts are about someone else hurts, but that's normal. I'm extremely glad but at the same time... I just need to get use to it. Plus, it's not a big deal at all. So don't worry about me & don't think that I'm trying to hold on. Because I'm not. I'd rather be someone's friend than be a stranger to them.
Adios amigos!
Yeah, so he does think that I still want something. He wants me to get over it. That's really sweet.
I am over it. Well, probably not as much as he is, but I am.
I just miss the feeling of "liking" someone so much and then having that "liking" be reciprocated. It's this feeling that I rarely feel. & it is the most wonderful feeling in the world (except the sweet taste of water after running 1000 suicides, or finally getting to use the restroom after holding it in for six periods at school)
I guess I'm holding on to the hope of that feeling. But I'm not holding on to him. I just maybe miss the thought of him. I know he doesn't hold on as strongly as I do because this relationship meant a lot to me (not that it didn't for him) but it meant more to me than to him, in my opinion. I know he's had other relationships and that's why it's a bit easier for him to let go. But look at it from my point of view. I've never ever had these feelings for anyone. I've never had a boyfriend. I've never held someone's hand. I've never kissed anyone. I've never felt light on my feet when I'm with someone. I've never experienced this lubby dubby feeling. Ever. So to sum it up, he's my first. My first at everything. Almost everything. That's really important to me. It's hard to forget the ones that made a huge impact in your life. It's hard to forget the ones that changed who you are. It's hard to forget the ones that taught you so much about yourself and about life in general. It's hard to forget the ones that made you believe. I love anaphorias and parallelism. But there it is.
I'm really glad that I got to go through this. I learned SO MUCH... maybe too much. It isn't stupid at all. Haha. I sound so dramatic and poetic O_O
Weird. Yes, I just can't shake that feeling off.
But I'm so glad I meant him. Thanks, dude! Really. Just the notion of knowing that your heart is with someone else, or your thoughts are about someone else hurts, but that's normal. I'm extremely glad but at the same time... I just need to get use to it. Plus, it's not a big deal at all. So don't worry about me & don't think that I'm trying to hold on. Because I'm not. I'd rather be someone's friend than be a stranger to them.
Adios amigos!