I keep a gun in the book that you gave me, hallelujiah lock and load.
So I haven't posted in a little while. I have rediscovered half of my music collection, therefore songs from the next while will be old.
I love MCR. And I have it stuck in my head.
Another knife in my hands
A stain that never comes off the sheets
Clean me off
I'm so dirty babe
The kind of dirty where the water never cleans off the clothes
I keep a book of the names and those
Only go so far 'til you bury them
So deep and down we go
****
(So say goodbye) to the vows you take
(And say goodbye) to the life you make
(And say goodbye) to the heart you break
And all the cyanide you drank.
They all cheat at cards and the checkers are lost,
My cellmate's a killer, they make me do push-ups (in drag)
But nobody cares if you're losing yourself...am I losing myself?!
Well, I miss my mom,
Will they give me the chair,
Or lethal injection, or swing from a rope if you dare;
Ah, nobody knows...all the trouble I've seen!
****
Preach all you want but who's gonna save me?
I keep a gun on the book you gave me, hallelujah, lock and load
Black is the kiss, the touch of the serpent son
It ain't the mark or the scar that makes you one,
and one,
and one,
and one
You'll never make me leave
I wear this on my sleeve
Give me a reason to believe
[Chorus]
So give me all your poison
And give me all your pills
And give me all your hopeless hearts
And make me ill
You're running after something
That you'll never kill
If this is what you want
Then fire at will
Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took,
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out
What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I've told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what it means
(I'm not okay)
To be a joke and look, another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time take a good hard look!
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out
Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed
I'm okay
I'm okay!
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)
But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay!
(Trust Me)
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
(Okay)
There are a bunch of others but I think it's the tune I like, not necessarily the lyrics... Plus all the lyrics are soo depressing, but the songs are really upbeat.
Lol....
Oh my... so.... NEW YORK IN THREE DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ALJFLADFJLAFJGOADFUBVADJFAEROUIDOCVIAORTOAWEJRFLV < Excitement.
And I have to move home directly after that. Lol fun times.
Oh my, Amanda is having a bad influence on me. I just said fun times.
So I think the smell of weed is getting to me.... loooooopy Lol.
Oh "Max".
Anyways off to bed so that I can cuddle :)
And then tomorrow I will be handing out 70+ pubcrawl shirts for Friday night, and then driving all over gods creation to get them places, all the while studying...
Then Friday I have two ball meetings for venues, then more shirt hand-outing, then pubcrawl.
Then Saturday is packing, both my apt and my clothing.
Then SUNDAY IS NYC DAY!!!!!!
Probably won't message between now and then, so signing off.
Love you all. Even if you don't believe me.
Talk to you when I get back!!!
I love MCR. And I have it stuck in my head.
Another knife in my hands
A stain that never comes off the sheets
Clean me off
I'm so dirty babe
The kind of dirty where the water never cleans off the clothes
I keep a book of the names and those
Only go so far 'til you bury them
So deep and down we go
****
(So say goodbye) to the vows you take
(And say goodbye) to the life you make
(And say goodbye) to the heart you break
And all the cyanide you drank.
They all cheat at cards and the checkers are lost,
My cellmate's a killer, they make me do push-ups (in drag)
But nobody cares if you're losing yourself...am I losing myself?!
Well, I miss my mom,
Will they give me the chair,
Or lethal injection, or swing from a rope if you dare;
Ah, nobody knows...all the trouble I've seen!
****
Preach all you want but who's gonna save me?
I keep a gun on the book you gave me, hallelujah, lock and load
Black is the kiss, the touch of the serpent son
It ain't the mark or the scar that makes you one,
and one,
and one,
and one
You'll never make me leave
I wear this on my sleeve
Give me a reason to believe
[Chorus]
So give me all your poison
And give me all your pills
And give me all your hopeless hearts
And make me ill
You're running after something
That you'll never kill
If this is what you want
Then fire at will
Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took,
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out
What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I've told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what it means
(I'm not okay)
To be a joke and look, another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time take a good hard look!
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out
Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed
I'm okay
I'm okay!
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)
But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay!
(Trust Me)
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
(Okay)
There are a bunch of others but I think it's the tune I like, not necessarily the lyrics... Plus all the lyrics are soo depressing, but the songs are really upbeat.
Lol....
Oh my... so.... NEW YORK IN THREE DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ALJFLADFJLAFJGOADFUBVADJFAEROUIDOCVIAORTOAWEJRFLV < Excitement.
And I have to move home directly after that. Lol fun times.
Oh my, Amanda is having a bad influence on me. I just said fun times.
So I think the smell of weed is getting to me.... loooooopy Lol.
Oh "Max".
Anyways off to bed so that I can cuddle :)
And then tomorrow I will be handing out 70+ pubcrawl shirts for Friday night, and then driving all over gods creation to get them places, all the while studying...
Then Friday I have two ball meetings for venues, then more shirt hand-outing, then pubcrawl.
Then Saturday is packing, both my apt and my clothing.
Then SUNDAY IS NYC DAY!!!!!!
Probably won't message between now and then, so signing off.
Love you all. Even if you don't believe me.
Talk to you when I get back!!!