[One-shot] Messages (part 2)
Title: Messages
Pairing: Ohmiya
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Romance
Disclaimer: I own nothing but the story.
Summary: Nino just couldn't see where his love could lead to. He lost in his own maze, until one day...
A/N: This is beta-ed by potatoos , thank you very much, even though you were so busy you still helped me so much *hug*. Hope you will enjoy this, minna-san... ^^. Comments are really really love <3 <3
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From: Nino
Subject: Are you free?
I am free tonight. If you’d want, we could go to the place you have mentioned before. Just the two of us. Okay?
From: Riida
Subject: Re: Are you free?
Of course! I’m free tonight too. Let’s go together then!
From: Nino
Subject: Re: Re: Are you free?
So I’ll meet you at 8.00 PM, okay? Be sure you’re ready by then, don’t let me wait or I’ll kill you.
From: Riida.
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Are you free?
I won’t. ^^ I miss you so much these days, Nino. See you at 8.00.
Nino’s heart beat wildly in his chest. Even though he knew that Ohno always said he missed him or things like that, he did not mean anything more. But Nino couldn’t stop grinning for the rest of the day, and somehow it made him feel lighter, and his life became a little brighter. He couldn’t count how many times Ohno had made him feel like that. It was a mystery, an unexplainable feeling that always made him feel up or down unexpectedly, sometimes putting him at the top of the world and sometimes kicking him to the bottom of the abyss.
It was 7.30 when Nino finished his final project that day, and he turned around before his manage called him back.
- Ninomiya-san - He caught his breath. Nino frowned. There was something going on - Sorry, but could you stay a little more?
- What’s wrong?
- The photo shoot yesterday had some problems, and they asked us to do it over again - the manager said - It’s an emergency, Ninomiya-san! It needs to be finished tonight and would be on sale tomorrow… Could you please?
Nino stood still, Ohno’s face played on his mind. Quickly, he smiled and nodded with a now relieved manager. “Sure. I could do that again”. He dugged into his pocket, took out his cell phone and flipped it open, composed an apology mail and feeling his own heart becoming hollow.
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It was the day of filming for Shukudai-kun, and they were behaving like usual, with Ohno sitting sleepily beside Nino, who was teasing Aiba, and they laughed as much as usual. Except something. Nino tried to keep himself a little further from Ohno, making sure that he maintained a safe distance between them to not think about the older man and focused on his task. Sometimes, he found himself slipping over his own words, his palms sweaty, his mind nervous and his body tensed. It was getting worse when Ohno unintentionally leaned closer to Nino when they were laughing, and Nino’s stomach did a flip-flop and he smiled nervously. Sometimes he felt the others’ worried eyes on him, but he couldn’t look back, and instead, pretended to concentrate on the paper in front of him.
When filming came to an end, Nino felt like he had no more energy to keep his grin or smile, and he slipped away from the shooting location, and headed to the bathroom to wash his face and relax a little. It would be a long day, since they were going to have a group interview and a photo shoot after this. He had to spend the whole day with Ohno and he must hide his nerves which was growing visibly in his eyes. He didn’t know if he could keep this secret to himself much longer.
Losing in his thoughts - which was really rare for Nino - he didn’t realise that there was someone following him silently. When he stopped at the elevator and looked at it absentmindedly, a hand tapped his shoulder, making him jerk. He turned to find a sad face with irresistible eyes looking at him.
- Where are you going? - Ohno asked quietly, his eyes settling on Nino.
- Un… The bathroom? - Nino smiled wearily and tried to ignore the redness that was starting to burn at his cheeks
- You’re acting strange. What’s wrong? - Ohno demanded worriedly. He eyed Nino carefully before letting out a sigh.
- No…nothing - Nino mumbled, trying to end the conversation as fast as possible - I was just… tired, and…
- You always use being tired as an excuse - Ohno frowned - You never tell me the truth. Why do you try to hide it?
Nino didn’t answer. What could he say? The last time when he asked Ohno out with the intention to confess, an accident drowned all his courage. He didn’t even dare to look at Ohno’s eyes, much less to confess. What would this lead to?
- Nino - Ohno bit his lips - Why only me?
- What… only you? - Nino raised his head, confused.
- It’s only me who don’t know anything - Ohno finished, letting out a doleful sigh - I know the others know what is going on. I have waited for you to tell me. But, you never did… - He looked at Nino desperately, making Nino’s heart sink. He would never want to see that look on Ohno’s face - … Am I that unreliable? Or are you mad at me? Did I do something wrong?
- No - Nino gasped - No, you didn’t do anything wrong!
- So why? - Ohno paused, but no answer came. He continued - You’re keeping distance from me too.
- I’m not! - Nino protested wearily - I don’t…
- You’re - Ohno sighed - Nino, why must you lie to me?
The world around him started to turn dark, except Ohno who was standing in front of him. Nino held his breath. He knew it was now or never. He must say it now or he would never have another chance again. He gulped, opened his mouth to finally confess, when he heard Aiba dashing into the lobby and called them loudly.
- Guys! It’s time for Wink up’s photo shoot!!
Both of them stood rooted to the ground. Ohno’s eyes were still waiting and he looked at Nino patiently. Nino smiled and shook his head.
- Ohchan… could we talk about this later? I think we need to go now.
- Nino…!
Ohno protested but stopped when he saw Nino’s eyes. It was full of hurt, tiredness, and loneliness - even when Nino was smiling at him, his eyes had no light in it, as if a part of Nino had died somewhere within his heart. This somehow made Ohno’s heart tightened. He moved closer to his band mate and wrapped his arms around Nino.
- Okay, I’ll wait… until you want to tell me - He said and hugged Nino tighter, wishing he could clear that look out of his friend’s eyes, and bring back Nino’s bright smile so that he would never be this lonely again.
- Thank you, Ohchan - Nino hesitated but hug Ohno back as well, feeling his heart flutter.
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For the next few days Ohno became depressed. Nino kept catching him spaced out without paying any attention to anything around him. Even though this was a most normal thing with Arashi, Nino knew that this time he wasn’t just spacing out. He was lost. He didn’t show any expression on his face, but did not try to hide his tiredness and loneliness either. Nino could read it in Ohno’s eyes and he felt his heart being constricted. Whoever made Ohno become like that, Nino wanted to kill that person. He would do whatever he could to bring back Ohno’s bright smile from the day he was in love. Seeing Ohno like this was unbearable, and it hurt him.
From: Nino
Subject: How are you?
What’s wrong?
From: Riida
Subject: Re: How are you?
… I think I’m in love.
From: Nino
Subject: Re: Re: How are you?
… It’s a little late. I’m surprised that you didn’t realise it sooner.
From: Riida
Subject: You know?
How do you know? I haven’t told anyone yet.
From: Nino
Subject: Re: You know?
Of course I know. And if you intend to tell the rest of Arashi, they have already known too.
From: Riida
Subject: No way!
Really? I can’t believe it. I just realised that…
From: Nino
Subject: Re: No way!
Yeah, because you’re an idiot. Want to go somewhere with me?
From: Riida
Subject: Re: Re: No way!
Really? Of course. When would we go?
From: Nino
Subject: Re: Re: Re: No way!
I’ll pick you up in 10 minutes. Are you free right now? Let’s go to the place you told me before.
From: Riida
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Re: No way!
Okay.
Nino drew in a deep breath to calm himself down. All he could do now for the person he loved the most was to listen. His hand was trembling, and he only realised it when he grabbed his key but it slipped out of his grab and onto the ground. He blinked, picked it up and went to his car - Ohno was waiting for him.
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- So, what’s exactly your problem? - Nino asked hesitantly, he stared at Ohno’s upset face but Ohno didn’t look at him. He was looking somewhere under the table and his lips became a line.
- I… - Ohno muttered.
He seemed to be at a loss for words. Nino looked at him, waiting patiently. He knew Ohno was the kind of person would never talk about his problems if he didn’t have to. He didn’t want to force Ohno either, so he kept silent. Nino stared at Ohno, then raised his head to look at the ceiling, and the front door. This was a nice place, Nino thought. It was warm, cosy, and sweet. It was really suitable for a date… If only this was a date. Nino smiled bitterly, of course not. You are trying to comfort Ohno , and not on date with him, Nino scolded himself. Before Nino could think about anything else, he heard Ohno’s hoarsed voice.
- Nino, I… - He lifted his head and looked at Nino’s eyes desperately - I think…
Nino held his breath nervously. What did Ohno want to say? Somehow, it made him worried but he could not explain why. His heart beat wildly inside his chest, and his palm began to sweat.
- I think… I’m … gay - Ohno mumbled miserably, and he lowered his head. His voice was so soft that Nino nearly missed the content.
Nino widened his eyes in shock. He didn’t think Ohno would tell him that. He couldn’t think clearly, but just stared at Ohno, who was still not looking at him. He hesitated.
- Un… Hai?
- I’m… - Ohno bit his lips, his eyes starting to water. Even though Nino couldn’t see his eyes, he could feel Ohno’s tension when his whole body trembled - … in love…
- Yeah… - Nino’s throat went dry - … and…?
- … with a guy - Ohno said miserably.
Nino couldn’t say anything else. He could never imagine that Ohno could be that miserable because of the fact that he was in love with a guy… Wait, wasn’t Nino the same?
- … Really? - Nino caught his breath.
- Yes - Ohno nodded, looked at Nino, and waited for him to react. Nino gulped when he felt all his blood running to his face.
- Ah - Nino tried to find the right words - … So…?
- He… doesn’t love me, obviously - Ohno looked at his hand - And… I don’t know what to do now.
Nino’s chest hurt like something just pierced through his heart. For some reason, all his desires suddenly came back and Nino knew clearly what he wanted right now. More than ever, he wanted to tell Ohno the truth, that he was in love with him, that, if Ohno could, let him try at least once. That, if Ohno cared, let him warm his heart at least once. That Ohno could turn around to see Nino who was standing there, waiting for him, longing for him… All the feelings were bursting out and screaming. Nino started to feel dizzy and he blinked to return to reality. He stretched out to hold Ohno’s hand, startling the latter but he didn’t redraw his hand.
- How can I help you, Ohchan? - Nino’s voice was trembling
- Nino… I… - Ohno’s tears started to roll down.
Nino looked at his eyes. Ohno’s eyes were telling something, deep inside his heart Nino thought he could understand… He wished he really could understand, and it wasn’t a dream.
That was a look of love.
And before Nino even realised it, Ohno leaned into him and place a slight kiss on his lips. He froze at his spot, eyes widened and he forgot how to breathe. He didn’t believe that this was real. He thought he was lost in his dream again, in his world where Ohno really loved him. But, with Ohno right in front of him, he knew it must be real.
When Ohno pulled back, he smiled miserably at Nino.
- I’m sorry… - Ohno bit his lip - I…
- Ohchan… - Nino still couldn’t breath, and he knew if he didn’t figure out the truth right now, he’d die of holding his breath for too long - Don’t you mean…?
- I’m in love with you… - Ohno looked at Nino, and Nino could tell that he had never seen eyes that are more beautiful. Ohno was looking gently at Nino, making his heart melt - … sorry, Nino. I know that is … so abnormal, that I’m not supposed to… love you. But, I realised that, I need you… more than anyone else. I miss you more than anyone else, and I want to be with you forever. I just… - Ohno started to cry again - … I was lost without you beside me these days. You’re so busy, yet I’m bothering you with this … But I couldn’t help thinking about you too much…
Ohno couldn’t say anything more because Nino had gripped his arms, pulled him closer and kissed him deeply. His heart stopped for a second, then beat wildly, and he could feel Nino’s heartbeat beating in sync against his own. He closed his eyes, wanting to believe this was all real.
- You’re an idiot - Nino said between kisses - You’re really, really an idiot…
- Why…? - Ohno breathed.
- I was waiting for this too long - Nino kissed Ohno’s forehead - I thought that you’d never love me… as I do… for a long time.
- Really? - Ohno blushed and tried to hide his grin, but Nino lifted his chin to look at his blushing cheeks and chuckled.
- Yes… - And he attacked Ohno’s lip one more time, and Ohno kissed him back just as passionate as he did.
The noises and lights and laughs in the background disappeared. It was just the two of them in their own world, and their own happiness reaching out for each other. It was just the two of them with their hearts beating in the same rhythm, their arms finding their way to each other’s side, trying to hold the other as tightly as possible. It was their love, and their lives.
And it was all real this time…
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