Awww hun, I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I can sort of relate. I went through a period in my life where I felt that same cloud hanging over me. I was going through life in almost a robotic fashion. I was never really happy and always felt like something was missing. I do feel that I have surpassed those times, but it was not without a lot of grief and heartache. I also feel that it's a constant journey and one can never be too sure that they won't get that same 'empty' feeling again for one reason or another. I have to remind myself even now to not live in the past and harbour resentment because it isn't worth it. I guess I can only hope I don't feel that way again or that I have a better way of handling it. Anyways, do you think that maybe the feeling of something being wrong has to do with your previous relationship not working out? I could be completely wrong and I apologize if I'm being too invasive, but perhaps the two things are relative to one another? Just my two cents.. Keep your head up, hun. *hugs*
Hmm I agree that it's a constant journey. I think right now I'm feeling this way because of so many things coming to an end. I really wasn't prepared mentally to come back to Canada when I did, I wasn't ready to be living at home, and I definitely wasn't ready for all this marriage drama to be thrown into my face. I think once I get more of a routine going it will really help, starting with a job. And then getting out and meeting people outside of this brown circle that I've known my whole life, maybe start dating again. I think all of that freshness will assist in getting away from this dark cloud, but a lot of it is also internal. I need to change my way of thinking to more positive and then positive things will automatically happen.
On another note, thanks so much for taking the time to comment. I didn't really think anyone read this anymore and am contemplating starting a new blog but I always love when someone writes something :)
For sure, a new start and new outlook on life will definitely help. And no problem, happy to comment, have always loved reading your entries. I don't come on here as often as I used to but I try to every now and again. (By the way, I'm Sarah W on FB, just in case you wanted to put a face to the name). :)
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On another note, thanks so much for taking the time to comment. I didn't really think anyone read this anymore and am contemplating starting a new blog but I always love when someone writes something :)
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