It's been not even a day since I last saw Barry and alas, I miss him. Oh no, am I turning into one of those sappy girls who oogle over their man?! Say it ain't so! Naaah. I know I miss him more cause he isn't here. If he was home right now, I wouldn't miss him cause I know I would see him tomorrow. But I won't. It will be a week. A friggin ( Read more... )

Baby steps be damned!

I did it!!! Ok, not really, but I took a major step today. Of course I am attracted to Barry, said this time and time again, but I have my issues that have been a pain in the ass. Well, I took a step. It was all in joke and play, but nonetheless my hand made contact!!! Okay, it was over the jeans, but those who know me well know that this was ( Read more... )

Is the infamous Ripster here about to curl out of the fetal position? I am just so friggin glad I am beginning to feel those inhibitions losing its edge on me. As time progresses, I am remembering what added to this wall that froze up inside myself... Not very happy times, but as I recognize it, I kick it to the curb, and feel that much more ( Read more... )

Recently had a nightmare. In the end it was something that made no sense, but I had the urge to call Barry to make sure he was okay. Of course, I sounded just... stupid in the end, but oh well. What else is new?

Spiritual jump. Or should I say a mini hurdle? Been slacking off again. Haven't felt the pull, the urge to do much lately. That is ( Read more... )

Barry's so cute. Yes, I am being all gay and giddy now. Ssshhhhh

Okay, Today Was A Good Day. I Didn't Even Have To Use My AK

This was in reference to a few days ago, I meant to make an LJ about it, but forgot. I am FINALLY taking a step and learning more about my spirituality. After watching the movie "Troll" I had this urge to read one of the Wiccan books. A specific one directed in starting off solitary ( Read more... )

First thing that is popping into my head is my annoyance with Dory. Dude, I can understand the awkwardness of this situation that certain memebers of my Pack have found themselves in, but that does not make up for being R-U-D-E. Just friggin apologize to my sister already. Instead you just stop calling all of us. A mistake was made, we can all ( Read more... )

Don't ya love those songs that you loved way back when and they pop back into your life unexpectedly? Woohoo.

I got to see CC today!!! Granted we were tired and ended up falling asleep during the middle of arm sex, but it was good being with her again. I miss her.

Had the family dinner at my Uncle's. I miss them too. I want to see them more ( Read more... )

Yesterday was pretty cool. Went swimming with Bobby, Danielle, and Barry at Bobby's place. Danielle and I came home, showered, changed, and waited for Barry to pop on by. Here I sit, playing my game, when Barry walks through the door, "Hey, when was the last time you drove your car ( Read more... )