Why is this so hard?

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Its like tourture almost. I'm starting to get upset more frequently, I'm counting down the days till I get to see him, I'm so incredible happy, but at the same time I'm counting down the days until I have to say goodbye again. It breaks my heart to know its just going to be a little over 3 days. Just one weekend. Like it litteraly kills me to know ( Read more... )

I hate it.
Less then a week and I already can't stand it.

And I can't fake it anymore, I'm such a bitch.

I have this huge desire to write, express my emotions through words, but I lost that ability a long time ago, or maybe I never really had it, but either way I have no way to satisfy this need ( Read more... )

some how it ended up being even harder then I thought it would be. I'm trying so hard because I feel like this is so stupid, but honestly I'm like distraut right now, I've cried like 10 times today and I dont think I'm done with that yet. I feel like my life is being ripped away and I can't really comprehend why its just that nothing is simple ( Read more... )

It hasnt even hit me that the summer is over yet, well basically ( Read more... )

I've never felt so confident about anything in my entire life, I've never been so sure of the way things will turn out. I'm freaking out about saying goodbye, but unlike when I left, this time there is not a single doubt in my mind. I never really thought that at 20 I would be feel so set and so secure in a relationship, what we have is something ( Read more... )

First tears tonight.
I was doing so good.

I so don't live in the moment most of the time, I miss the past to much, I fear the future to much and I spend to much of my time thinking about that ( Read more... )

I'm trying to prepare myself for it already ( Read more... )