[multichapter] baby blue part 2 chapter 15
Title: Baby Blue: Part 2: Chapter 15
Pairing: JunDa
Rating: PG-15 (some language and mentions of sex)
Word Count: 1815
Disclaimer: I still haven't found a way to make them my slaves yet...
Summary: It was all supposed to end with the tour...but what if they can't stop? What if they won't stop? How will it affect their relationship, and their relationships with those closest to them?
July 18th 2012
Ueda waited nervously in the radio station, he had R-One recording today and it was the first time he would find himself alone with Maru after the other man had found out about his affair with Taguchi. Maru was still angry at them, he was speaking to Koki again, but he would only speak to the other three when necessary for work, which had made their concerts in Taiwan rather uncomfortable. Ueda hated the silence, he hated it more than fighting and arguing, at least then he would feel like some progress was being made, but like this he thought it was pointless.
He’d only tried to approach Maru once during the week to talk about it, but he’d been met with Maru’s stony reply of “I have nothing to say to you right now, I’m still angry at you and I don’t want to say something I’ll regret.” Then the other man had walked away.
Koki at least was speaking to them again, though he avoided being around them both at the same time, and it was obvious their friendship had taken a blow from it. Koki had apologised for his behaviour though, saying that he just needed time to get used to the idea, and to get over all the lies.
The door opened and Ueda looked up but Maru merely nodded at him and then went to sit down in the corner furthest from him. Thankfully the radio show went smoothly, Maru was happy talking and even laughing with him and Ueda would have felt relieved if he didn’t know that Maru had been in so many dramas for a reason. As soon as the staff had left, the atmosphere turned cold again.
“Maru, can’t we talk about this?” Ueda pleaded “I hate this”
“It’s your own fault...” Maru replied coldly “I’m not ready to talk to you yet...”
“Why not? I don’t get why you’re still so angry with us...I know it’s hard to believe but...”
“You think I’m angry because you’re gay?” Maru snapped.
“I’m not...I’m not gay” Ueda answered a little pathetically.
“Whatever...it’s not even about that at all. Sure it’s kind of gross just because it’s Taguchi, and that’s...gross. But it’s not that. Ueda you lied to me...I thought we were best friends, I’ve always been honest with you and I’ve told you about tonnes of less than admirable stuff I’ve done. But you lied to me...for months. You sat there opposite me every week, we went out to eat and you didn’t say a thing, and you were fucking him the whole time...” Maru’s eyes were filling up and his voice was a little shrill.
“I’m sorry...I didn’t mean to lie and hurt you...I was just scared somebody would find out...”
“Yeah, then what, they’d make you stop seeing each other? Well it’s nice to know how much you trust me... And it’s nice to know that what you have with him is more important to you than our friendship.” And he stormed from the room.
Ueda felt a lump rising in his throat, he tried to swallow it but the emptiness that was left in the room was almost suffocating. He quickly gathered his things and left, only realising when he was nearly there, that he’d driven to Taguchi’s apartment instead of his own. He pulled up outside the building and was just trying to decide where best to turn around when he felt a sudden, overwhelming need to see the younger man.
He got out of the car and tried the buzzer but there was no answer so he went back behind the safety of his tinted glass. He tried calling Taguchi to see where he was but there was no answer on the phone either. He knew he should just go home, but he just couldn’t face going home alone after this and so he waited. For two hours he waited.
He was barely aware of the time passing until there was a knock on his window, he looked up to find Taguchi trying to peer through it.
“What are you doing here?” he asked, surprised, when Ueda rolled down the window.
“Maru...said some stuff, I just didn’t want to be on my own.” He replied, blushing.
“Come on up ok? We’ll get a nice hot cup of tea and you can tell me about it.” Ueda nodded and followed him up in silence.
When they were seated comfortably with hot tea, Ueda finally seemed to loosen up. “It wasn’t anything bad really, nothing I wasn’t expecting at least. Just that he was upset and angry that I hadn’t trusted him enough to tell him, and to think he might rat us out...”
“I guess he has every right to feel that way, not just towards you of course, I used to think there was so much trust between the five of us.”
“I just feel so stupid...why didn’t I trust him? And Koki too, they’re both open minded, if we’d have just gone about it the right way...”
“I didn’t really figure it’d be such a big deal...I mean looking back on it, it’s obvious, but at the time...you know, it was what it was and I didn’t think it was enough that we needed to tell them.” Ueda nodded though he was staring away into the corner of the room. His stomach growled, managing to break the tension and make them both laugh. “Are you hungry?”
Ueda smiled a little shyly and nodded “Usually Maru and I go out to eat...but you know...”
Taguchi nodded. “Do you want to go out for something with me? Or do you want to stay in and I’ll cook?”
Ueda grinned “You cook. Something with fish.” Taguchi nodded and went to go make some food while Ueda got himself comfortable in front of the TV. They sat at the kotatsu again to eat. “You know, you’re getting pretty good at cooking.”
Taguchi beamed “Thank you, I got a few recipe books actually, just of like basic stuff, but I thought it might be nice to try a few new things, since I’ve been cooking more and stuff...”
Ueda nodded “Thank you, for making the effort for me...” his cheeks turned a little red “We could go out later and you could show me how to play billiards again, if you want to?”
“Really? I thought you didn’t like it?” Taguchi asked surprised, but secretly hoping.
“Yeah well, back then I didn’t like a lot of things I do now...”
Taguchi smiled “I’d really like that” and then he got up to clear away their dishes.
They were just settling down again on the sofa when the buzzer went. Taguchi got up to answer it.
“Taguchi, can I come up for a bit and talk to you” came Koki’s voice through the intercom.
“Ano...sure if you want to, I should let you know Uepi is here too though...” Taguchi answered tentatively.
“I see, I can come back later if you’re...you know...busy.”
“No, no, it’s not like that” Taguchi hastily amended. “I just thought, in case you weren’t comfortable...”
“I guess I should speak to him too.”
“Alright, I’ll buzz you in, the door will be open.” And he let Koki in. “You don’t mind right?” he added to Ueda.
Even though the door was open, Koki knocked to make his presence known before he entered. Taguchi motioned for Koki to sit on the sofa beside Ueda, before pulling out his beanbag to sit on.
“I didn’t...” Koki started, blushing “You weren’t...you know...”
“No we weren’t...thank you for coming over.”
Koki nodded then sat for a moment in thought “Maru called me a little while ago. He wanted to know how I was feeling about this whole thing...”
“And how do you feel about it?” Taguchi asked hesitantly.
Koki sighed heavily “I guess I’m just...you know it’s weird...like there’s two different parts to it. Firstly I’m pissed and upset that you both lied to us” there was a short pause “but I guess I can understand why you didn’t tell us...I wish you could have trusted us, but under the circumstances...so I guess I forgive you”
“Koki, thank you.” Taguchi smiled.
“Thank you” Ueda added, inclining his head a little in Koki’s direction.
“The other thing...this...your relationship, it’s just going to take some time to get used to. I mean...I never thought the two of you...I mean seriously? If I hadn’t seen it, I would never believe it”
”Sorry about that...if we’d have known someone might walk in...” Taguchi apologised grimacing.
“It was my bad...I shouldn’t have done that...”
“So are we...can we be ok now?” Ueda asked.
Koki nodded and smiled “It will take some time to get used to but...I think we’ll be alright” Taguchi beamed and rushed to throw his arms around Koki. Koki laughed and held his arm out to pull Ueda into the hug. “Don’t go thinking you can start with fan service now though, I mean what would you two even be...JunDa? Come on, who would be into that?”.
Taguchi laughed “Noted.”
When they finally pulled apart Ueda turned to Koki “Did Maru say anything? About how he was feeling?”
“Just that he’s still upset, but that he doesn’t want to lose your friendship over it. Maybe just give him a few days and let him come to you when he’s ready to talk it out.”
Ueda nodded “Thanks Koki”
“How are things with Kame?” Taguchi added.
“I’ve sorted things out with him, I was mostly pissed that he lied to us too, but I understand why he didn’t tell us, about the Akanishi thing and about you two, so I couldn’t really stay mad at him either. I think Maru was planning on going out with him later to talk.”
Taguchi nodded. “That’s good, I hope things can go back to normal soon...”
Koki nodded too, “Anyways, I’d better go, leave you two lovebirds alone...I’m meeting Juri for dinner anyway.”
“Thanks for coming to see us, I’m glad we can be ok again” and he let Koki out. Once the door was closed he went back to Ueda on the sofa “That went pretty well” he said as he flopped onto his knees on the sofa.
“Yeah, one down, one to go.” Ueda mused.
“He’ll come around” Taguchi smiled, much more hopeful than Ueda, and he pushed himself forward, leaning over the older man as he locked their lips together. He pushed gently until Ueda was laying back on the sofa and he moved to cover him, pushing his tongue a little more insistently into his mouth. “So...I think we have a little time to kill before we go out...I wonder what we should do.” He added a little smugly.
“You could start by shutting up” Ueda replied just as smugly and pulled Taguchi back into his mouth.
Chapter 16
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Firstly, I know that R-one is no longer with us *tear* but this was written before it finished so I'll just be continuing as if it's still around. But anyways, so things are ok with Koki now, Maru is taking a little longer to come around but I hope it's a bit clearer now just why he is upset - it seems he may have come across as a bit of a homophobe in the last chapter.
Pairing: JunDa
Rating: PG-15 (some language and mentions of sex)
Word Count: 1815
Disclaimer: I still haven't found a way to make them my slaves yet...
Summary: It was all supposed to end with the tour...but what if they can't stop? What if they won't stop? How will it affect their relationship, and their relationships with those closest to them?
July 18th 2012
Ueda waited nervously in the radio station, he had R-One recording today and it was the first time he would find himself alone with Maru after the other man had found out about his affair with Taguchi. Maru was still angry at them, he was speaking to Koki again, but he would only speak to the other three when necessary for work, which had made their concerts in Taiwan rather uncomfortable. Ueda hated the silence, he hated it more than fighting and arguing, at least then he would feel like some progress was being made, but like this he thought it was pointless.
He’d only tried to approach Maru once during the week to talk about it, but he’d been met with Maru’s stony reply of “I have nothing to say to you right now, I’m still angry at you and I don’t want to say something I’ll regret.” Then the other man had walked away.
Koki at least was speaking to them again, though he avoided being around them both at the same time, and it was obvious their friendship had taken a blow from it. Koki had apologised for his behaviour though, saying that he just needed time to get used to the idea, and to get over all the lies.
The door opened and Ueda looked up but Maru merely nodded at him and then went to sit down in the corner furthest from him. Thankfully the radio show went smoothly, Maru was happy talking and even laughing with him and Ueda would have felt relieved if he didn’t know that Maru had been in so many dramas for a reason. As soon as the staff had left, the atmosphere turned cold again.
“Maru, can’t we talk about this?” Ueda pleaded “I hate this”
“It’s your own fault...” Maru replied coldly “I’m not ready to talk to you yet...”
“Why not? I don’t get why you’re still so angry with us...I know it’s hard to believe but...”
“You think I’m angry because you’re gay?” Maru snapped.
“I’m not...I’m not gay” Ueda answered a little pathetically.
“Whatever...it’s not even about that at all. Sure it’s kind of gross just because it’s Taguchi, and that’s...gross. But it’s not that. Ueda you lied to me...I thought we were best friends, I’ve always been honest with you and I’ve told you about tonnes of less than admirable stuff I’ve done. But you lied to me...for months. You sat there opposite me every week, we went out to eat and you didn’t say a thing, and you were fucking him the whole time...” Maru’s eyes were filling up and his voice was a little shrill.
“I’m sorry...I didn’t mean to lie and hurt you...I was just scared somebody would find out...”
“Yeah, then what, they’d make you stop seeing each other? Well it’s nice to know how much you trust me... And it’s nice to know that what you have with him is more important to you than our friendship.” And he stormed from the room.
Ueda felt a lump rising in his throat, he tried to swallow it but the emptiness that was left in the room was almost suffocating. He quickly gathered his things and left, only realising when he was nearly there, that he’d driven to Taguchi’s apartment instead of his own. He pulled up outside the building and was just trying to decide where best to turn around when he felt a sudden, overwhelming need to see the younger man.
He got out of the car and tried the buzzer but there was no answer so he went back behind the safety of his tinted glass. He tried calling Taguchi to see where he was but there was no answer on the phone either. He knew he should just go home, but he just couldn’t face going home alone after this and so he waited. For two hours he waited.
He was barely aware of the time passing until there was a knock on his window, he looked up to find Taguchi trying to peer through it.
“What are you doing here?” he asked, surprised, when Ueda rolled down the window.
“Maru...said some stuff, I just didn’t want to be on my own.” He replied, blushing.
“Come on up ok? We’ll get a nice hot cup of tea and you can tell me about it.” Ueda nodded and followed him up in silence.
When they were seated comfortably with hot tea, Ueda finally seemed to loosen up. “It wasn’t anything bad really, nothing I wasn’t expecting at least. Just that he was upset and angry that I hadn’t trusted him enough to tell him, and to think he might rat us out...”
“I guess he has every right to feel that way, not just towards you of course, I used to think there was so much trust between the five of us.”
“I just feel so stupid...why didn’t I trust him? And Koki too, they’re both open minded, if we’d have just gone about it the right way...”
“I didn’t really figure it’d be such a big deal...I mean looking back on it, it’s obvious, but at the time...you know, it was what it was and I didn’t think it was enough that we needed to tell them.” Ueda nodded though he was staring away into the corner of the room. His stomach growled, managing to break the tension and make them both laugh. “Are you hungry?”
Ueda smiled a little shyly and nodded “Usually Maru and I go out to eat...but you know...”
Taguchi nodded. “Do you want to go out for something with me? Or do you want to stay in and I’ll cook?”
Ueda grinned “You cook. Something with fish.” Taguchi nodded and went to go make some food while Ueda got himself comfortable in front of the TV. They sat at the kotatsu again to eat. “You know, you’re getting pretty good at cooking.”
Taguchi beamed “Thank you, I got a few recipe books actually, just of like basic stuff, but I thought it might be nice to try a few new things, since I’ve been cooking more and stuff...”
Ueda nodded “Thank you, for making the effort for me...” his cheeks turned a little red “We could go out later and you could show me how to play billiards again, if you want to?”
“Really? I thought you didn’t like it?” Taguchi asked surprised, but secretly hoping.
“Yeah well, back then I didn’t like a lot of things I do now...”
Taguchi smiled “I’d really like that” and then he got up to clear away their dishes.
They were just settling down again on the sofa when the buzzer went. Taguchi got up to answer it.
“Taguchi, can I come up for a bit and talk to you” came Koki’s voice through the intercom.
“Ano...sure if you want to, I should let you know Uepi is here too though...” Taguchi answered tentatively.
“I see, I can come back later if you’re...you know...busy.”
“No, no, it’s not like that” Taguchi hastily amended. “I just thought, in case you weren’t comfortable...”
“I guess I should speak to him too.”
“Alright, I’ll buzz you in, the door will be open.” And he let Koki in. “You don’t mind right?” he added to Ueda.
Even though the door was open, Koki knocked to make his presence known before he entered. Taguchi motioned for Koki to sit on the sofa beside Ueda, before pulling out his beanbag to sit on.
“I didn’t...” Koki started, blushing “You weren’t...you know...”
“No we weren’t...thank you for coming over.”
Koki nodded then sat for a moment in thought “Maru called me a little while ago. He wanted to know how I was feeling about this whole thing...”
“And how do you feel about it?” Taguchi asked hesitantly.
Koki sighed heavily “I guess I’m just...you know it’s weird...like there’s two different parts to it. Firstly I’m pissed and upset that you both lied to us” there was a short pause “but I guess I can understand why you didn’t tell us...I wish you could have trusted us, but under the circumstances...so I guess I forgive you”
“Koki, thank you.” Taguchi smiled.
“Thank you” Ueda added, inclining his head a little in Koki’s direction.
“The other thing...this...your relationship, it’s just going to take some time to get used to. I mean...I never thought the two of you...I mean seriously? If I hadn’t seen it, I would never believe it”
”Sorry about that...if we’d have known someone might walk in...” Taguchi apologised grimacing.
“It was my bad...I shouldn’t have done that...”
“So are we...can we be ok now?” Ueda asked.
Koki nodded and smiled “It will take some time to get used to but...I think we’ll be alright” Taguchi beamed and rushed to throw his arms around Koki. Koki laughed and held his arm out to pull Ueda into the hug. “Don’t go thinking you can start with fan service now though, I mean what would you two even be...JunDa? Come on, who would be into that?”.
Taguchi laughed “Noted.”
When they finally pulled apart Ueda turned to Koki “Did Maru say anything? About how he was feeling?”
“Just that he’s still upset, but that he doesn’t want to lose your friendship over it. Maybe just give him a few days and let him come to you when he’s ready to talk it out.”
Ueda nodded “Thanks Koki”
“How are things with Kame?” Taguchi added.
“I’ve sorted things out with him, I was mostly pissed that he lied to us too, but I understand why he didn’t tell us, about the Akanishi thing and about you two, so I couldn’t really stay mad at him either. I think Maru was planning on going out with him later to talk.”
Taguchi nodded. “That’s good, I hope things can go back to normal soon...”
Koki nodded too, “Anyways, I’d better go, leave you two lovebirds alone...I’m meeting Juri for dinner anyway.”
“Thanks for coming to see us, I’m glad we can be ok again” and he let Koki out. Once the door was closed he went back to Ueda on the sofa “That went pretty well” he said as he flopped onto his knees on the sofa.
“Yeah, one down, one to go.” Ueda mused.
“He’ll come around” Taguchi smiled, much more hopeful than Ueda, and he pushed himself forward, leaning over the older man as he locked their lips together. He pushed gently until Ueda was laying back on the sofa and he moved to cover him, pushing his tongue a little more insistently into his mouth. “So...I think we have a little time to kill before we go out...I wonder what we should do.” He added a little smugly.
“You could start by shutting up” Ueda replied just as smugly and pulled Taguchi back into his mouth.
Chapter 16
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Firstly, I know that R-one is no longer with us *tear* but this was written before it finished so I'll just be continuing as if it's still around. But anyways, so things are ok with Koki now, Maru is taking a little longer to come around but I hope it's a bit clearer now just why he is upset - it seems he may have come across as a bit of a homophobe in the last chapter.