11/3/04
so, i find myself gaining a HORRIBLE characteristic - jealousy. even more than you so.
i'm so jealous at times that i could almost throw up. i have literally almost THROWN UP from jealousy.
i hate to see him flirting with, let alone DATING other girls ... this is corny, but i feel like we're perfect for each other. Seriously. Maybe it's a high school thing - I guess that's probably it. Still, it sucks. It used to be we'd talk every night for at LEAST an hour. I felt incomplete unless I had told him about my day ... now, i can't bring myself to return his phone calls. He came to otown the other day, and i tried to hang out with him like we used to, and it just doesn't work. i hate to see people CHANGE like this.
it just occured to me, though - i always talk about everyone around me changing ... maybe i'm the one that's different.
Today's Song (and yes, it's still for him.):
BARENAKED LADIES LYRICS
"Told You So"
I never jumped in and rescued you,
but I wanted to
I didn't tell you which way to go,
'cause I thought you'd know
You had a problem with your new found
wealth, you brought it on yourself
I never told you I told you so, but I told you so
Have to let it go
It's time to let it go
Now I can't believe
It took so long to leave
Perhaps one day I'll grieve
Or I never will
I never told you I agreed with you,
I don't think I do
I wasn't sure quite what the whole thing
meant, but I'm glad you went
I never thought that it could be painless,
but it is I guess
I had myself fooled into needing you,
did I fool you too?
Have to let it go
it's time to let it go
Now I can't believe
It took so long to leave
Perhaps one day I'll grieve
Or I never will
A viral infection that can incubate for years
Caused by affection fallen deep into arrears
No medication to procure
Makes me pure, there's no cure, I am sure
I never mentioned how I've prayed for you,
and now I've paid for you
I never said that I would wait for you,
it's too late for you
Have to let it go
it's time to let it go
Now I can't believe
It took so long to leave
Perhaps one day I'll grieve
Or I never will