Matt and I celebrated our 3 year anniversary 2 days ago. It's been rocky. But, I really do believe that it is imperfection that gives a relationship character. (Obviously to a certain degree) Our love is strong, stubborn, erratic...but, truly beautiful in all of its imperfections. Somehow, despite our differences...we make sense in some ( Read more... )

I was thinking a lot yesterday about religion. Is there a God? I used to think so. That is I was raised to think so. But, when my Mom got sick when I was 14 I used to scream, cry, and beg God to make things right again. Then she appeared to be getting better...and then it happened all over again. And again I screamed and begged for his divine ( Read more... )

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My life is falling apart...
everything is changing before my very eyes.
I'm terrified to wake up in the morning, and I can't sleep at night.
My future is uncertain. I am absolutely terrified of what is yet to come.

Happy fucking holidays.

Matt has been accepted into the University at Buffalo for Media Study ( Read more... )

I'm an absolute wreck. I wish someone or something would put me out of my own damn misery, because I certaintly don't have the courage to. Things with Matt and I have been on the rocks, I'm positively moving into a new apartment in May. I don't know if him and I will be over, because I don't know how living apart is going to affect the two of us ( Read more... )

How can two people who love each other more than anything destroy the only means to each other’s happiness? How is it possible…that love isn’t enough? Love is just the foreground to establishing a seemingly functional relationship. And it seems as though no matter how much love actually exists between two people…love will never conquer all. It’ ( Read more... )

Why is it that...after a year and a half...
I still cry when Matt leaves for work...because I miss him so much.

This time of night I could call you up ( Read more... )

Fuck.
Just...fuck.