So you heard me promise again and again that now I would take risks, now I wouldn't hide, now I would make plenty of very bold statements. Did I fail to mention that those risks had to be ones where the outcome was clear? What? That's not a risk you say? You're right. It's not. But that's how I thought. Basically then, I'm just all talk ( Read more... )

Good times yesterday. We went out to the Cheesecake Factory for Melanie's birthday. I really do love those kids. It was me, nickie, tim, and mike, and melanie of course. We always have such a good time together. We just talked about anything and everything and made fun of each other. It was fun. I'm going to miss times like that so much ( Read more... )

So, the rest of my life seems to be coming together. As much as it always seemed like there was a decision to make, I really made my decision a long time ago. I was just afraid to say it. It seemed lofty. But there's nothing else I can do. I want to sing. And that's that. And now I know where I will apply. I have most of my repertoire. I'm doing ( Read more... )

Who pressed the fast forward button on my life? I guess I can't complain. I was the one who always said I wanted reality. When it rains it pours, let's just say that. Except that now, when it rains, it snows.

Drunk ( Read more... )

Am I that cold that I'm over it? I hope not. I'd rather start to feel. Maybe feel something that doesn't come from a page or that doesn't have a time signature. My roommate's listening to Hey Jude. ha. I'm not Jude. Wish I could be ( Read more... )

Well, the parade was cancelled. Not that I wanted to march, but I didn't want practice on tuesday. I'd planned my week around no practice and now we have it again. Obviously we don't need it so it's just going to be annoying. Cleaning just irritates me because it's so tedious and the freshmen don't pay attention to where they're supposed to be. But ( Read more... )

Getting ready. Yes, I write journal entries right after I get out of the shower. Deal. Apparently I'm dressing up as a "tart" tonight. I'm scared of giving the LAG party this theme. I'm afraid. I like dressing up. But I'm not so much into the slutty. I don't feel particularly attractive in slutty. I really do feel most attractive in jeans and a ( Read more... )

This is gonna be weirdly similar to the stuff Erica just wrote, so just bear with me, cause I thought of all this before I read that anyway. So, and yeah I'm gonna do the same thing with saying stuff but not letting you know at all what it's about, so none, well possibly one of you are even gonna understand what the hell I'm talking about. It ( Read more... )

I'm screwed. So I might as well write a journal entry. I hate senior seminar. And I HATE thomas moore. He sucks. Grrrr.

Well happy belated birthday to laura. We went out to the kells last night. It was fun. I like going out in a big group. It was a funny night. A lot of lesbianism, interesting convos, the like. And we did our job getting Laura