so i am terrified about my audition this weekend. my voice isnt in top condition- im taking 7 pills a day for it( and the steroids taste the worst!). im nervous, and i kind of wish i could bring brian with me. oh well. i miss him already though* holds on tight* i guess he isn't coming online. depressing. so today we went out to breakfast, and hung ( Read more... )

opera workshop...had to do "the crying thing." so i went in front of the class and sat in a chair, and closed my eyes while they watched me. so first i did relaxation, just tried to pull into my own world and waited while loud ppl walked by. then i focused, and went into there and put myself back into that spot...that one day. and everything i saw ( Read more... )

I tell yah, just because I'm getting a year and half of spanish out of one semester doesn't mean they're only giving me 1 semesters worth of hw. goodness me. soo much spanish to do lately. yeah, im slaving away at a 10 page packet, studying ocab and tenses, preparing for our test. fun, huh? today wasn't so horrible. filmmaking was good, the movie ( Read more... )

so I took brian on a date last night- it was pretty fun. i picked him up at 5:45 and went in and he had this cool crane thing he built to show me. wetalked to his parents for awhile, and then left. i drove us down to the harbor- we went to milannos. it was ok, cassie seated us. they had pasta and stuff i could have gotten but i wasnt really that ( Read more... )

oh what a day. ok, so this morning was the best morning ever. :D went over tobrians hosue with bagels in the morning- very happy. hw didnt go so well. i was stressed and gradually moved into really angry and then had a breakdown- tears and all. good fun. i felt better afterwards tho, and after staring at my computer for several hours i barfed an ( Read more... )

Man, that was a fun day! im suprised more people didn't show up though- he invited everyone we knew in prettymuch the entire world. Maybe people's emails changed? anyway, so after a morning of cleaning and packing and such i headed early over to marina park and got there about 10:10( early i might add).and pat was there, staking out the spot. ( Read more... )

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Ok, now that it's 9:30 at night I am pensive. Brian stuff. AH. I'm definitely falling for him...I mean obviously I had already fallen for him but much more than before. More and more. And it's just scary. I guess, when I started going out with Brian I didn't want to get attached to him at all. Yea, that's exactly what I always tell everyone- allow ( Read more... )

Do you ever wonder to yourself- what if you had taken a different path somewhere way back when? Not that you didn't like the one you took- but if you had made one decision differentely, how much could it have changed your path? I just found out that a guy I had a crush on freshmen year, had a crush on me too. I nonchalentely mention it and wow- ( Read more... )

i was going to say what i did yesterday, but i forget. oh yeah i remember, nothing except sit around and do homework i think. Yeah, kyle came over for a bit and we did some. then i just worked on it for several hours. brian came over at about 9 and we watched a movie. it was good ( Read more... )