i had to delete my old entry so im replacing it. nicole wrote in her diary this this year is gonna kick ass, and then she wrote how we werent friends anymore. im guesing the year will kick ass BECAUSE were not friends. god damn me. lots of people asked me where she was today, and i had to say 'i dont know, we're not friends anymore'. everyone ( Read more... )

i opened a sharpener and took out the blade. i sliced just above my elbow, a slight cut on my wrist, and the back of my arm, just a tiny bit. i have 5 or 6 deep cuts on my stomach, and one on my thumb. 'paper cuts' is what i say they are, kids. i fucking hate you. if you dont fucking care about anything i say, do or feel, get the fuck out of my ( Read more... )

i fucking love brandnew. two fucking days and im dying. im gonna cry so fucking much at their concert, i swear to god bitch. theyre the only thing thats made me happy lately, and i fucking love them. i had a fucking shit day again today. i hate people, i really do. <33. keep the noise low she doesn't wanna blow it. shaking head to toe while your ( Read more... )

i cant fucking take this anymore. no one knows what its like to feel what i feel. and im not saying 'i need help' because everyone ive talked to, no one can give me help. doctors cant give me help. only i can help myself. and right now, even i cant. i love you.

my life is like completely numb right now. it's the weirdest feeling. i got onto the bus this morning, and louise didn't say anything to me. i just put my headphones on and listening to my deja entandu cd for the whole journey. i now know every song by heart on it, and all the words. i'm glad cuz i already knew the whole of your favorite weapon, so ( Read more... )

as stated in riding in cars with boys, one day can change the rest of your life. well this day i hope, will not be the day. i almost cried so much.. at lunch i was walking by myself and i saw danielle & jessie & becky etc, and danielle was like whats wrong? cuz apparently i looked like id been crying. and in english, i just sat there and like ( Read more... )

tod is a bitch, so here i am. this morning i worked, and then went into town with louise. i wrote her a really long letter but forgot to give it her. we went to sghq {sex god headquarters.. aka hmv} and just stayed in there for like hours. then i bought a magazine, and i now have brandnew on my walls. im in love with my room now, all because of bn ( Read more... )

i just got in from work, i only got like £6 cuz i worked for like an hour. i'm really bored.. i think i'm going into town with laura soon cuz i need to get lucy's birthday present. lewis isn't texting me back! gah and there's still like a million things i need to buy. okay let's see.. igby goes down, and the soundtrack. road trip. the first funeral ( Read more... )

im finding callum a tad annoying right now. haha hes ringing me. hold the phone people. haha okay back. kits annoying me. blahh. cresseys being all boring and stupid. lewis isnt texting me back, gah he has nice teeth. lizzie told people he tried to sleep with her, and i asked him and he was like wtf no! lol aww. later xox

im helping callum sort out some relationship problems. he and leanne dont seem to be doing so well, but im making them talk it out. jasper brought over happy gilmore for me to watch. it feels weird, i dont think i can look at him, cuz i know that he knows stuff about me =/ gah im gonna go xox.