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just when you think you've won the race, you come in last place...because everyone else lapped you. -a quote i made up just now
thats how life and love is.
at least that's how ive figured it to be.
read this only if you want to.
things now are like a rollercoaster, going up and down and loop-de-loop. some days are better than others. and some days just leave me asking "what the hell?".
i have my friends, and they are always there for me. i love them so much and they will go out of their way to make me smile. i also have my guy friends outside of school and they treat me like im one of the guys and can leave me cracking up and pissing my pants laughing. then i have family who i know will always be there and support me (somewat) yet they can sometimes drive me insane....
.... and then theres the guy i love. (yes love. never thot id be saying that, did ya? hah) hes the one guy that can give me butterflies whenever i see him. if i could, (and i were a lot older) id marry him. hes the best thing thats probably happened to me. and im that sure of the relationship. however lately things havent exactly been a fairytale romance. i wont get into wat happened, but i'll say that things are going so smoothly. have you ever loved someone so much, that if you're not with them even for a moment...it hurts? well it hurts....a lot. so if hes reading this right now, i want him to know....im sure of the relationship. no joke. and when hes ready...im here. and im not leaving.
school's still a bitch. too many damn finals coming at me at once. im stressing about trying to bring my grades up so i can get a discount on car insurance. i dont know how thats gonna work out considering that i dont even have a permit, or even like driving. (crazy huh?) but the parentals are saying "just get straight As and take drivers ed in summer" ...no pressure. hahahahaha........
and then the counceling office totally screwed up my schedule for next year. they basically made me choose between choir (which i love) and honors french (which i need). i told them i cant choose between that. so they moved all my classes around and erased choir and put me in production and performance. dont get me wrong, i love drama...but with choir i get to perform on stage every other month and we get to travel. agh its so stupid. im probably going to have to drop all of my honors classes...which sux b/c ive never been in an honor class EVER.
*holds up middle finger*
thats to u, Desert Vista.
well i have to go and do nothing. leave a comment if you want.
<3 slapke