Maybe you just need some time away.

I'm feeling more validated as of late.

People I used to know and I hold dear to my heart are making their way back into my life. I'm starting to realise I should go out more, money permiting. There are people still out there. I need Matt, but not in an everyday way. I love him to death though.

I'm so happy Smeggy got moved in. I'm surprised that he even has to ask me. He's always helped me without hesitation. I would help Smeggy no matter what! I love him and would help him no matter what! no Matter... his shit is moved. I love him. He's my brother, my best friend ( Read more... )

I just don't think I can jump in and make out with some guy all willy nilly with out some booze involved...
But thanks for the invite dave.

Nick wrote me today to say that he's going to be in town on Aug 9th with his girlfriend and he wants to catch up ( Read more... )

So Dave came to hang out last night. I thought everything would be alright with him. We had a shit ton of fun! We all laughed, had a good time, etc... I went home even though he wanted me to hang out (Pop's in the hospital having back surgery, wanted to be home if anything happened ( Read more... )

I knotic that the only time I ever use this thing is to bitch about boys, because I don't want anyone to read about it on myspace ( Read more... )

Totaly aggrivated.
I wish my heart would just dry up.
Boys don't like fatties.

I hate dating.
I haveing a crush.

I believe I messed up my life. I need a do-over. It started out promising. Now I can't get a job and I'm terribly over weight and ugly, and I'm trapped here, with my fucking parents, who I'm really starting to resent. I want a do-over, or to pull the curtin on this fiasco soon.