Life
It's been a while since I've made a public entry. Close to a month, in fact. So much has been going on, I haven't really bothered to say much here, but I figured anyone who still cares deserves an update, so here goes.
For those of you who haven't heard, Ben and I are getting a divorce. The relationship has been going downhill for months. Well, ok, I think it's been going downhill since we started, but it finally go to the point where it just wasn't working. It's not his fault, it's not my fault, it just happened. Between his problems finding and keeping a job, and my just not wanting to be around him anymore, it just isn't working. So, it's over.
He's down in Indiana, finally getting the training for his CDL so he can start driving trucks. He'll have a one-year contract with PAM, then be free to do whatever he wants to do - and it looks like he'll be paid pretty well, too - $400/week once he starts driving on his own (after about 1 1/2 months of driving with someone.) I've moved in with my mom, and am working on getting the apartment finished while he's out of state - packing, storing, and cleaning up the mess.
I've been cleaning up a lot of messes since he's left, it seems. Bills to figure out, apartment to take care of (which could easily have been taken care of a month ago if we had gotten off of our asses), and all sorts of fun stuff. Oh, and a huge mess on SL that's left my accounts disabled, but I'll write about that once it's all sorted out. Which will hopefully be tomorrow, but I'm not crossing my fingers. :\
Once I get the messes cleaned up, I'm going to work on moving on with my life. I'm going back to school. I'm going to get a degree, and try to get a good job so I can take care of myself and Cheyenne. I want to do this right this time, and that means pushing past my fears and just doing things. It's going to be tough - I have a lot of big fears to deal with. But I'm going to do this, and it's going to work out. And I'm not going to be alone - I have family and friends who care about me and who want to help me through this. And I can do it.
No more running. :)
For those of you who haven't heard, Ben and I are getting a divorce. The relationship has been going downhill for months. Well, ok, I think it's been going downhill since we started, but it finally go to the point where it just wasn't working. It's not his fault, it's not my fault, it just happened. Between his problems finding and keeping a job, and my just not wanting to be around him anymore, it just isn't working. So, it's over.
He's down in Indiana, finally getting the training for his CDL so he can start driving trucks. He'll have a one-year contract with PAM, then be free to do whatever he wants to do - and it looks like he'll be paid pretty well, too - $400/week once he starts driving on his own (after about 1 1/2 months of driving with someone.) I've moved in with my mom, and am working on getting the apartment finished while he's out of state - packing, storing, and cleaning up the mess.
I've been cleaning up a lot of messes since he's left, it seems. Bills to figure out, apartment to take care of (which could easily have been taken care of a month ago if we had gotten off of our asses), and all sorts of fun stuff. Oh, and a huge mess on SL that's left my accounts disabled, but I'll write about that once it's all sorted out. Which will hopefully be tomorrow, but I'm not crossing my fingers. :\
Once I get the messes cleaned up, I'm going to work on moving on with my life. I'm going back to school. I'm going to get a degree, and try to get a good job so I can take care of myself and Cheyenne. I want to do this right this time, and that means pushing past my fears and just doing things. It's going to be tough - I have a lot of big fears to deal with. But I'm going to do this, and it's going to work out. And I'm not going to be alone - I have family and friends who care about me and who want to help me through this. And I can do it.
No more running. :)