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[thestoryiswrong]

i'm sorry that i usually only post blah entries here. i dunno, i guess i feel this journal is here for me to spew. just to write things down when i need them. i've tried keeping normal journals for that purpose but i can never do it. i can't even keep this consistently. so sorry if you keep thinking i'm always sad. i'm not. but when i post here it

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[deuxditz]

Dear Mell,
I'm sorry that you can't see your ex and enjoy it. It can be really hard, but hopefully in time it will either get easier or you'll be able to let him go.

I understand the sentiment of the anxiety of being done with school, but you've still kept in touch with plenty of your high school friends. If you make the effort, it will happen.

It will all work out in the end. Don't worry. Be happy. :)

[allienchanted]

You've still got us. I think your college friends will be in the same mold. Nobody's going anywhere, Mell.

And he's changed, not just toward you. It's an adjustmet process.

!

[blacjaguar]

Mew!

I saw a guy in Barnes and Noble today who kind of looked like my ex and I immediately got all nauseas and anxious. It's tough. Blah!

Also...no worries! I keep in touch with my college buddies, even though it is every few months, every 6 months, sometimes only once a year. But when we do see each other, it's like we never split. Your real friends will always keep you in their heart, even if you're not there!

[queen_ann]

Second on Allie. You know that we are not going anywhere. And she's right, he's the one that has changed, not towards you, but just in general. And maybe it's not all for the good, but trust me, I know all about ex's morphing into completely new people. ;) And you're right, it does hurt, even if you have no desire to date them anymore. It's almost as if you want them to stay the same so you can keep the happy memories of them alive. Because if they're different, then it's like all the good stuff couldn't possibly have happened

[queen_ann]

Oh and PS. Sara never responded to the note I sent her. It's just as well. You're not alone on that one. I think it's because we don't like the feeling of untied strings or of unresolved-ness. But remember, it only brought us closer together. :)

[allienchanted]

I still have real unresolved issues on that front. I was looking at pictures of her and I at fencing today while sorting through stuff. Very difficult. Miss you guys :(