Why am I up so early you ask? Well I've been since 4 am and havnt been able to go back to sleep. Ever since I moved back to Tucson, I have been having these horrible dreams....reoccuring ones too. These dreams are so real and disturbing that I'm afraid to go back to sleep cause I'm afraid I'll have the same dream. I told my parents about this... ( Read more... )

sometimes I wish someone would just put me outta my misery and just fucking kill me. just do it. i deserve it anyways. i feel like my life is totally gone to shit. This is the deepest hole I have ever been. some people are stronger than others and know how to deal with traumatic shit. i guess im not one of those people...Its been over a year now ( Read more... )

Ive been having a crunk of a time this past week. now its time to get a job and settle down. ive been here a week so its time to buckle up and get my priorities straight. Im going to start writing my screenplay starting Monday...the only thing is, theres not really an ending. its going to be a memoir of my life... I hope it turns out good. Anyways ( Read more... )

Stephanie is my new best friend! What a riot these past few night have been. I need to take a break from drinking cause my body is starting to get angry with me. arggghhh!

I dont really like being single anymore...

I've been having a bad ass time hanging out with stephanie ( Read more... )

I think Kelly is going to break up with me. Im really scared...I dont want her to cause I like her alot. she hasnt answered her phone in almost 2 weeks nor has she returned my phone calls. Im really starting to get worried. Im thinkin to myself what did I do wrong? Did she get weirded out? were we too close too fast? Did she realize what a loser I ( Read more... )

Has anyone heard the new Yeah Yeah Yeahs??????? It is fucking amazing. Even better than their last album. Anyways, Happy St. Patricks day everyone! I never really understood the big deal but its always a excuse for everyone to get drunk. Since Im leaving Thursday, Im trying to spend as much time with my sister as possible. We're going to a party ( Read more... )

in the end all that matters is what you think of yourself...

hahahahahaha, they dont know where I am, thus they cannot bother me anymore!

everything is going so well for once. my trip back to tucson really made me realize how much I miss it and miss my family and friends. Not only that but now that Im with Kelly, I want to move back even sooner. Im moving back at the end of May. I cant wait untill I start school and just get to be with Kelly. Damn, I miss her so much already. 3 more ( Read more... )