Ambitions
This might be long and extremely random.
So to read the rest.
It seems that as I get older, I begin to tack on more goals, dreams and ambitions to my "List of Things to Do In This Lifetime" and the reality of me marking off all of them is getting to be more far-fetched and unrealistic. Not to mention, none of them coincide with each other. If I pursue one, other ambitions are going to take an indefinite backseat.
Here are some of my wishes:
1: Since I'm a girl, of course the thought of family is profound. I want a husband, I want kids, I want a house and all of the madness that goes into having a family. I love children-- I want to raise them and embarrass them and cry when they go off to college... I want all of that. This isn't a difficult dream to accomplish. And it certainly isn't a difficult dream to accomplish without a husband, either.
A lot of my friends are worrying about their love lives as well as mine. LOL I can honestly say that I am very content and happy with being single, and being single for this long! Sure, there are days when I do wish that I have had or do have a boyfriend... I mean who doesn't, right? But I'm okay with not having one too. I'm used to it. You can't really miss something if you've never had it before.
Since I've been single all of my life, I tend to think with a single person's point of view. There is always a possibility that I won't ever get married, and if that is the case, I'm fine with that. Think what you want, but I'm very serious. Of course I'd love to be happily married to the man of my dreams, but marriage isn't always in the cards for everyone, and I may be one of those people. It's nothing pessimistic on my part, I'm just being realistic about it. And the other realistic part is I don't need a man to have a family. I know that I want to have kids, no matter what, and I know what options I can take.
So that is wish one -- Family.
2: California. I was born in California and most of my relatives are over there. I'd really like to move back after I graduate and do an extremely unrealistic and idiotic thing... which is to just at least try to act out there. I'd teach, but in my spare time I'd go and find auditions and just try for awhile. I want to be able to say, "At least I tried," and have no regrets. It's a very far-fetched dream, I get it. But it's a doable dream.
The thing about this (since I weigh the possible pros and cons) is if I do happen to be in a committed and serious relationship, it would be really hard. Another is that I think I'd have to take more tests to be able to teach over there, not to mention the crazy living expenses. And lastly... the reality of it. The chances of me breaking into Hollywood is laughable. Thinking about it right now actually makes me smile and roll my eyes, but I still want to do it! I DON'T KNOW WHY.
That's crazy dream number two -- Moving back to California
3: Most recently-- Teaching in Korea for a year. There's this awesome program that I want to do. You sign up to go over to Korea and teach English for a year. They pay for housing and everything, you just teach and get paid. The thought of a completely new culture, place, and people is so exciting! A big part of my passion is people and teaching. It just seems very rewarding that I'd get to teach a different language to these kids!
The bad thing is that I know for a fact that I'll get so homesick I'll probably cry a lot. Haha! But the experience factor of it just seems endless! I'd grow a lot more as a person, I'd find out a lot more about myself. I'd probably pick up on the language pretty well, learn and try new things and see new places! Ah, I love the thought of it!
We'll see! At this point, this one's at the top of my list.
So that's wish number three-- Teaching in Korea!
Those are my top three! I have a few more, but these are the most vivid ones.
I could always do them in order; Go to Korea for a year, come back with money saved and move to California, and eventually start a family. It could happen. Who knows?
The hardest and biggest part is having enough courage to even try any of these! Well, having a family is different. But moving away or being away from my parents and sister and friends is going to be really hard. There can also be a million of other factors why some of my goals might not be reached. But it's still fun and exciting to daydream about it and possibly have it become a reality.
We'll see! We'll see. =D
That's all!!!
So to read the rest.
It seems that as I get older, I begin to tack on more goals, dreams and ambitions to my "List of Things to Do In This Lifetime" and the reality of me marking off all of them is getting to be more far-fetched and unrealistic. Not to mention, none of them coincide with each other. If I pursue one, other ambitions are going to take an indefinite backseat.
Here are some of my wishes:
1: Since I'm a girl, of course the thought of family is profound. I want a husband, I want kids, I want a house and all of the madness that goes into having a family. I love children-- I want to raise them and embarrass them and cry when they go off to college... I want all of that. This isn't a difficult dream to accomplish. And it certainly isn't a difficult dream to accomplish without a husband, either.
A lot of my friends are worrying about their love lives as well as mine. LOL I can honestly say that I am very content and happy with being single, and being single for this long! Sure, there are days when I do wish that I have had or do have a boyfriend... I mean who doesn't, right? But I'm okay with not having one too. I'm used to it. You can't really miss something if you've never had it before.
Since I've been single all of my life, I tend to think with a single person's point of view. There is always a possibility that I won't ever get married, and if that is the case, I'm fine with that. Think what you want, but I'm very serious. Of course I'd love to be happily married to the man of my dreams, but marriage isn't always in the cards for everyone, and I may be one of those people. It's nothing pessimistic on my part, I'm just being realistic about it. And the other realistic part is I don't need a man to have a family. I know that I want to have kids, no matter what, and I know what options I can take.
So that is wish one -- Family.
2: California. I was born in California and most of my relatives are over there. I'd really like to move back after I graduate and do an extremely unrealistic and idiotic thing... which is to just at least try to act out there. I'd teach, but in my spare time I'd go and find auditions and just try for awhile. I want to be able to say, "At least I tried," and have no regrets. It's a very far-fetched dream, I get it. But it's a doable dream.
The thing about this (since I weigh the possible pros and cons) is if I do happen to be in a committed and serious relationship, it would be really hard. Another is that I think I'd have to take more tests to be able to teach over there, not to mention the crazy living expenses. And lastly... the reality of it. The chances of me breaking into Hollywood is laughable. Thinking about it right now actually makes me smile and roll my eyes, but I still want to do it! I DON'T KNOW WHY.
That's crazy dream number two -- Moving back to California
3: Most recently-- Teaching in Korea for a year. There's this awesome program that I want to do. You sign up to go over to Korea and teach English for a year. They pay for housing and everything, you just teach and get paid. The thought of a completely new culture, place, and people is so exciting! A big part of my passion is people and teaching. It just seems very rewarding that I'd get to teach a different language to these kids!
The bad thing is that I know for a fact that I'll get so homesick I'll probably cry a lot. Haha! But the experience factor of it just seems endless! I'd grow a lot more as a person, I'd find out a lot more about myself. I'd probably pick up on the language pretty well, learn and try new things and see new places! Ah, I love the thought of it!
We'll see! At this point, this one's at the top of my list.
So that's wish number three-- Teaching in Korea!
Those are my top three! I have a few more, but these are the most vivid ones.
I could always do them in order; Go to Korea for a year, come back with money saved and move to California, and eventually start a family. It could happen. Who knows?
The hardest and biggest part is having enough courage to even try any of these! Well, having a family is different. But moving away or being away from my parents and sister and friends is going to be really hard. There can also be a million of other factors why some of my goals might not be reached. But it's still fun and exciting to daydream about it and possibly have it become a reality.
We'll see! We'll see. =D
That's all!!!