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i've been in such a shitty mood lately.
i feel as though i'm not living, more so just existing. i'm not accomplishing anything, i have no goals, not really. i mean of course i want the band to succeed, and other than that i know what i want to do, i want to be an architectural engineer, yet all i do is sit on my ass, and what do i have to show for it? nothing. but it's not that i'm lazy or anything, well i am to an extent, but who isn't. i just hate how i want to try something, hoping it will work, but it's shot down, and the other person, or whatever it is, does not want to try, at all, and it takes away all chance for sucess. and it makes me think, "you know, why even bother?" then i get that attitude with everything, and it sucks. it puts me in a shit streak, like right now.
i need to get a job. i need to get shit straight and get out of this.
i feel as though i'm not living, more so just existing. i'm not accomplishing anything, i have no goals, not really. i mean of course i want the band to succeed, and other than that i know what i want to do, i want to be an architectural engineer, yet all i do is sit on my ass, and what do i have to show for it? nothing. but it's not that i'm lazy or anything, well i am to an extent, but who isn't. i just hate how i want to try something, hoping it will work, but it's shot down, and the other person, or whatever it is, does not want to try, at all, and it takes away all chance for sucess. and it makes me think, "you know, why even bother?" then i get that attitude with everything, and it sucks. it puts me in a shit streak, like right now.
i need to get a job. i need to get shit straight and get out of this.