i really dislike being lied to and i am no one's second choice.

my boyfriend is pissing me off

so last week i had a song stuck in my head but i couldn't remember the lyrics or the tune but i knew i would recognize it when i saw it. so what else would i do but review all lj posts since 2003! i found it!

i finally saw ben folds last night, it was amazing. 8th row center. i loved it. i thought a lot about being in junior high :-) and adam singing in my ear was not helping the giddiness.

sometimes i feel like i'm taking advantage of people. i don't know why i love attention so much.

i had a strange thought today ...

i miss falling in love.

i'm contemplating breaking up with adam. we're not having problems necessarily, just differences in ideas of where our relationship should go i think. we've been seeing each other for almost 6 months now, i kind of thought his unwillingness to get married and have children was just something he said to feel manly but his lack of ability to connect ( Read more... )

i really want to see ponyo and that makes me a super nerd

i don't know what is wrong with me. my body is telling me i'm stressed but i don't feel like i should be stressed. all the signs are there though; lack of focus while driving, constant headaches, moodiness (mostly crying), tiny bumps growing on my hands, i'm having a hard time sleeping and when i do i have nightmares. all of these things are very ( Read more... )

so i've been trying this relationship stuff i read about ... it feels like a cruel punishment! but i think it may be working. the more i say i just like having fun, nothing serious the more pursuant he gets! i'm amazed frankly, for a man who doesn't want commitment he sure tries hard