maxvinyl in shitlist is really getting on my last nerve. she's such a hypocrite: saying "oh i wish my father was here to yell at me" while complaining about attention seeking kids? dumbass
i like him. he knows it. im a sophomore, hes a junior. he will be leaving our school at the end of the semester. which is in 5 days. last saturday, i called him to talk and he acted really awkward. wednesday, he was holding hands with a freshman i kinda knew. he didnt tell me, but i know from other people shes dating him. and were supposed to be okay-ish friends. he recently got his license too, which should help with the distance. but still, things will be weird if he has a girlfriend. and i am a complete and utter social wreck. :\
i don't know you at all but... i need to be anon. hope that's good with you.
i love her so much. so fucking much, she's the only reason i'm still alive. every day i'm thinking of how little my life's worth, how barely-there my desire to be alive is, but then i think of her. think of the plans we've got.
there's a big fucking ocean seperating us. keeping us apart. and it's getting harder and harder to deal with that, because all i really want is to be with her. i miss her so much, all the time.
she goes to college soon. not me, i'm younger, some dumb girl who's prob'ly gonna end up a nobody because of all the shit that's happened with my health and my school. i hope she still loves me in the end of it. i know that she isn't gonna be around much when that happens. i'm terrified that we'll grow apart, that she'll meet some cute girl there who'll be able to cuddle with her and do everything we've planned.
I'm sure that you are just as special to her as she is to you. And even if you don't end up with some super special great career or something of the sort (I'm just assuming this is what you meant when you said you'd be a "nobody"; sorry if I'm totally off), I'm sure she'll love you just the same because you're still you, you know?
I really hope that everything will work out well for you.
i checked back here tonight on a whim and this really made me smile. thank you. i truly hope you're right. my self-esteem is sort of messed up at the moment, but this has made me feel more positive if nothing else. (that is what i meant by the 'nobody' comment, by the way.)
thank you, very much. i hope things are good for you.
I am so sick of this girl Vanessa. She flirts with all the boys, acts like she is some sort of frilly delicate thing. She thinks everyone likes her, but will act all self-conscience. She says *smilz* all the time which is very. fucking. annoying. I just want to give her a reality check. She's not that attractive. Mingling with everyone doesn't make you cool. She has everyone under a spell. And I need to break it.
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i wish people knew that there's much more to them that i like than their looks.
and not to mention, i get all giddy and a huge smile spreads across my face whenever i see them on talk shows, mtv, etc. etc.
is there something wrong with me?
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he knows it.
im a sophomore, hes a junior.
he will be leaving our school at the end of the semester. which is in 5 days.
last saturday, i called him to talk and he acted really awkward.
wednesday, he was holding hands with a freshman i kinda knew.
he didnt tell me, but i know from other people shes dating him.
and were supposed to be okay-ish friends.
he recently got his license too, which should help with the distance.
but still, things will be weird if he has a girlfriend.
and i am a complete and utter social wreck. :\
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i love her so much. so fucking much, she's the only reason i'm still alive. every day i'm thinking of how little my life's worth, how barely-there my desire to be alive is, but then i think of her. think of the plans we've got.
there's a big fucking ocean seperating us. keeping us apart. and it's getting harder and harder to deal with that, because all i really want is to be with her. i miss her so much, all the time.
she goes to college soon. not me, i'm younger, some dumb girl who's prob'ly gonna end up a nobody because of all the shit that's happened with my health and my school. i hope she still loves me in the end of it. i know that she isn't gonna be around much when that happens. i'm terrified that we'll grow apart, that she'll meet some cute girl there who'll be able to cuddle with her and do everything we've planned.
i feel so replacable. she's so special.
damn.
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I really hope that everything will work out well for you.
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thank you, very much. i hope things are good for you.
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She flirts with all the boys, acts like she is some sort of frilly delicate thing. She thinks everyone likes her, but will act all self-conscience.
She says *smilz* all the time which is very. fucking. annoying.
I just want to give her a reality check.
She's not that attractive.
Mingling with everyone doesn't make you cool.
She has everyone under a spell. And I need to break it.
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