Oh Em Eff Gee. Does my muse not see the title of this document I'm working on for the Honey flashwork?! "Short and sweet" it says. Short. And. Sweet
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I've never been where you are, but I am sorry you had to spend so much time there, and I am amazed at your own fortitude. And your writing has been so lovely.
Thank you, I appreciate the sympathy. I think I am starting to get a handle on it again, or at least I'm starting to get used to not having a handle on it and that's getting easier. Today was better than yesterday, anyway. And I very much appreciate the compliment, thank you. :)
I love your stories and the different take you have - and by different I mean the way you see things isn't the same as how I see things - because that's what excites me about my friends.
I can remember when you were doing JWP you said how it forced you to write without carefully considering every word, which was good, but very few people can keep that up. (I don't even do a full month of JWP!) So there comes a time when one slows down, but you did it and I'm sure you'll be able to do it again. And I'm delighted that even though your Fan Flashworks don't always go the way you've planned, you are still writing them. It is a great achievement.
Thank you very much, I appreciate the compliment. I agree, I think it's one of the most wonderful things about the fan communities to see how the same seed can provide such different inspiration to different people. Non-fans look at fandom and think it must be so boring, just the same thing all the time... they have no idea
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That all sounds awful, but I'm going to be honest with you (or maybe I've said it before?), it's so much better that you can actually recognize that it's happening. I mean, no matter how bad it gets, if you "know" it's going on then you're not too lost. When you start thinking "this is just my personality and nothing can be done" or even "what are you talking about, this is normal", that's when things are reaaally bad
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Absolutely, I agree with you it is far better for me to be aware of what's going on and to be able to separate it as an actionable item rather than an intrinsic part of my personality. That's what the first round of therapy did for me, and my continuing awareness of what's going on is I think why I've never needed to officially go back.
I'm intrigued to hear of your description of your empathy difficulty. For the most part, I feel other people's emotions *incredibly* strongly (although I've got quite a flat affect, so they'd never know that). But I naturally intellectualise and control my own authentic emotions and smother them with reasons and rationalisations and disaster recovery plans until I'm not even aware of them apart from the nervous tics--and I try to do that too with these disproportionately strong empathetic reactions I get from other people because I know they're going around feeling them all over the place, or anticipate that they will if I do something or remember that they
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I can remember when you were doing JWP you said how it forced you to write without carefully considering every word, which was good, but very few people can keep that up. (I don't even do a full month of JWP!) So there comes a time when one slows down, but you did it and I'm sure you'll be able to do it again. And I'm delighted that even though your Fan Flashworks don't always go the way you've planned, you are still writing them. It is a great achievement.
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Absolutely, I agree with you it is far better for me to be aware of what's going on and to be able to separate it as an actionable item rather than an intrinsic part of my personality. That's what the first round of therapy did for me, and my continuing awareness of what's going on is I think why I've never needed to officially go back.
I'm intrigued to hear of your description of your empathy difficulty. For the most part, I feel other people's emotions *incredibly* strongly (although I've got quite a flat affect, so they'd never know that). But I naturally intellectualise and control my own authentic emotions and smother them with reasons and rationalisations and disaster recovery plans until I'm not even aware of them apart from the nervous tics--and I try to do that too with these disproportionately strong empathetic reactions I get from other people because I know they're going around feeling them all over the place, or anticipate that they will if I do something or remember that they ( ... )
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