the timing is never right.
i was too late.
my stomach won't stop turning.
im sorry.

nothing can compare to home ( Read more... )

it was a lot of fun to go downtown and see the "spelling bee ( Read more... )

once again, i just dont know ( Read more... )

it's a beautiful struggle.

made me laugh.
ohhhhh, just wait.
you wont be laughing afterwards.

do you "find comfort in yourself?"

oh itunes shuffle.
thanks for that.

i dont really know. i guess i never do. i dont know why i think about it so much. like why? the facts were layed out right in front of me. i accepted it. but i dont know why i cant get over the fact. it hurts. i dont know why i brought that with me. cause at one point it made me happier than anything. and i believed everything. i became vulnerable ( Read more... )

i've been thinking a lot lately. and i don't know why certain things come to my mind. like, why think about that? or remember that? or think what if i did this instead? i dont know why i've been doing that a lot. maybe im just looking for a reason. but i shouldnt be. its not me who should be. whatever. i dunno. fuck all that. i dont know why i ( Read more... )

37.
39.
there's nothing left.

leaving was so surreal. i dont think i realized it was happening. cause i didn't cry. and i dont know why. maybe i was too anxious or jittery to cry. but seeing the ones i loved cry for me, was indescribable. there are amazing people at home, and i am so lucky to be friends with them. and i am so lucky they care enough to call or im or anything ( Read more... )