blah. i'm unhappy. i always feel like i'm doing something wrong, and it's really annoying me. the most annoying thing is that it's true. i'm trying do be mr. perfect for my gf, but i always feel like i'm not good enough. i'm trying to do what i'm supposed to do for God, but i keep screwing up and forgetting ...everything. i'm trying to do ( Read more... )

Yawn...sleepy..i'm bored, but its okay, lol. i feel good..i did jump triple-frontkicks tonight. It was sweet. We were just doing random, stuff, so we set up some cones and stacked them in different ways..some really low but long, some really high, some both, and just started jumping over them. Then, we just started doing stuff in mid air..tucking ( Read more... )

Well...::scans previous entry..:: just ignore every depressed, cynical, self loathing and..eh...just every word that lacked self esteem in my last entry. i dunno what was wrong with me, but i'm fine now. lol, i'm just dumb sometimes. but anyways...i dunno..i'm tired and..well...i'm depressed again, but not badly, and for a good reason. i really, ( Read more... )

Bah, doing/typing some homework. I feel...kinda bored..lonely...i miss Kierstin. Hopefully i'll see her later..and...naive. lol, i got really excited when i found out that some of the gainesville people would be at church this morning..stayed for second service..but as someone else later put it, we( myself and the person in question) weren't really ( Read more... )

Well, as anyone of adequate coolness would know, today i had a tournament with 2 other TKD schools. Bitches, I said I would bring home some medals and I sure did. Gold for forms, silver for sparring. But I swear to God I blocked that ****** ******* attack that won him the medal. Regardless, I'm the better fighter. I literally, moments befroe then, ( Read more... )

Well..i'm supposed to be in bed..i even told grass i was gonna cuz i didn't want her to be concerned about my rest..shes too good to me.. but i just cant fall asleep. i layed down on my bed and knew it right away that it wouldn't happen. I'm too excited about the tournament tomorrow, and not quite exhausted enough to crash yet. I hope shes gone ( Read more... )

Well here i am, got off the phone with Mike T. a little while ago, about helping with the new middle-school equivalent of young life thing..i would enjoy it, but we'll have to see ( Read more... )

I made a Journal. I have to go now, though, because I have TKD tonight. Bye