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theyaoifairy

It's been awhile...

Nov 22, 2006 19:02

I haven't posted in a long time and since my friends are no where to be found and my little heart is being crushed yet again... it just might be best to rant on this little device ( Read more... )

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blogbist November 23 2006, 06:32:06 UTC

:( i think that it's really shitty for him to treat people like that
just using people until he's done with them
I hope you can find something to keep your mind off him

theyaoifairy November 23 2006, 07:20:51 UTC

I'm afraid it isn't that easy... I see him everyday and usually we sleep together at night. I'm just torn in half right now about what I should do...

blogbist November 24 2006, 00:41:00 UTC

I'd like to point out that I didn't say anything was going to be easy

instead of offering any advice, which was not my intention, I'd like to say that I hope things turn out better for you in the end

theyaoifairy November 24 2006, 11:48:09 UTC

Hmm.. okay I didn't mean it like that I guess... Okay, well thanks I guess.

god_of_c00lness November 23 2006, 22:55:55 UTC

Merideth, did you read my livejournal post?
I just got back on the internet today, and see that you did not reply.
I am sorry if you are also hurt because of my mistake. Could we talk about it? If you want, we can just post to eachother in my lj entry, since it is marked viewable only to a few people.
I'll wait for your answer.

theyaoifairy November 24 2006, 11:51:32 UTC

Yeah, I read it, I'm not mad or anything, I was just a little hurt that you never called me after Thursday, but now I understand why. Well, I don't know. You can call me any time you want to, it doesn't matter to me. I just think that you are a different person to me now because you still seem so young and going through things that I have already went through with drugs and drinking and everything. I don't know, it just seems like kind of a turn off I guess. Sorry, I hope that didn't offend you or anything and I definately understand whatever you choose to do. I still love you like a best friend, it's just that you're different and I have to get used to it.

god_of_c00lness December 6 2006, 18:29:31 UTC

Oh, I see. But really, I'm not a different person. Smoking pot is just one aspect of my pasttime. I'm not overly addicted or anything, and have never got "out of control" with it either. You'd have to see me when I'm high to understand, because you are probably thinking I'm pretty immature right now. Beccah and me have talked about my recent taking in to drugs, and I am very careful about it because of which ( ... )

theyaoifairy December 7 2006, 19:50:42 UTC

No, I don't think you are immature for doing drugs, I just don't like it or like to see the people that I care about on them. It just reminds me of all of my past mistakes while on them and how I got addicted so bad and so fast. I don't want that for you or for anyone. I'd love to still be friends with you! there was never a time that I didn't, I just wondered if you still wanted to be friends with me... You can call me anytime you want to, I don't mind at all and to be honest, a part of me has been waiting for you to call... I'm mostly used to you being a little different then what I had thought before, so don't let that get in the way of anything.

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schoner_verfall November 24 2006, 21:50:31 UTC

*comfort*

sm_campbell November 27 2006, 19:23:31 UTC

I'll tell him for ya. If this boy actually loved you he wouldn't be using you like this. Besides, who wants to be someone's second choice? That must feel awful. He doesn't deserve you Mee Mee.

theyaoifairy November 30 2006, 14:31:44 UTC

Yes, I know. I've told him the same thing. I don't want to be second and it isn't fair to me at all. I told him that he doesn't deserve the way I feel for him or how I treat him like a husband or a very serious boyfriend. I don't know. I've told him how I feel, everything. I know he cares a lot and he feels terrible for wanting to have both me and this other girl. But I told him, either you choose one of us or I'll choose for you and leave and never come back. It doesn't really matter if I don't come back since I hate school and I want to take a little break from it and just apply to colleges. So, basically I am staying here for him... But I don't want to wait around anymore. Ugh!!! this school is not a good omen for me....

sm_campbell December 5 2006, 21:49:23 UTC

A. You can continue as you are and be hurt every damn day.. OR
B. You can refuse to see him/talk to him and get one with your life.. OR
C. You can use him right back.. although that may prove easier said than done.

theyaoifairy December 6 2006, 03:12:47 UTC

Yes, I think B is the best of the options... and have seriously considered it and told him that that is going to happen either now or later when I come back from home and I just won't keep in contact. It is better for us both and I know it, I am just trying to make him see it as well.

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