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[theyneverknewme]

do you ever wonder if you exist? you know, have doubts if you're even real? i mean sometimes at like 3 in the morning i'll just be lying there (damn insomnia) and ill be certain there's nothing out my window, but im afiraid to go look becaue i know i'll see a perfect emptiness then ill turn back around and the room will be gone too, and ill just be

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[lil_dominicana]

heh..havent that happen to us all.....i feel kind of bad not telling luis im suicidal and all....he would probablie think im crazie...but then again if he reallie liked me he wouldnt....i hate when i do that...i sit there and think out loud my own damn answers but anywho...yeah i feel like that everieday...thinking maybe ill go to sleep one day and wake up to nothingness and it wont reallie be sooo bad though....i think i would actuallie be happier with myself....i wonder sometimes if people know i am sitting there in the back of the classroom, wondering what death feels like or what would of happen if i would of od two years ago in this lonely desolate hell i call a room....would anyone miss me? no...not reallie...maybe a few, others would forget about me and others would act like they KNEW me to get others to feel bad for them.....but like you said...we both dont listen to them...cuz we both have things left unfinished here.....