i dont know if what i want out life will come from books and learning, and above all money. i want a simple slow, but meaningful life. i dont know if i am only wasting my time thinking that well ill change my mind at some point, so i better just go through with some kind of college for a safety net. it feels like i hate half the things i do,(drugs ( Read more... )

since recently messing up twice my days a hectically busy, starting the day off at 615 to be across town at 700 for community service or at 830/930 and halfway across town at 900. leave either of those places at 1200(Mon.Wed.) 130(tue.thu) to go to human ecology or art appreciation. when leaving human ecology i go directly to alternative school, ( Read more... )

$3000 to happiness, or saturday

tomorrow i will begin attending the alternative center at jenks. for 2 two hours twice a week i will take only core classes starting at 3:30, so my week will be almost equal to half a day of a regular students schedule. starting next semester i will be able to receive a credit for working. also, with free tuition i can take two courses at the local ( Read more... )

last week didnt go too well for me, wednesday was a bad day all over and thursday nothng bad happened but i was still thinking of the downing things that happened the day before. so friday, not wanting to think anymore, i didnt from the moment i woke up. i drank at school, got caught, got kicked out. i could go back next year but super-senior has ( Read more... )

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what does it mean to respect yourself?
i know what it means to respect others and it just seems that truly respecting yourself means something more, like your thoughts and morals and body and health.
i have had a lot of fun the past several weeks and school reflects that.
i dont know whether or not i have respected myself fully to attain that fun

gosh. i have another awesome job. i went to church today and i couldnt find any youth or the youth director, so i went and hung out with kelsey in the nursery. her boss walked in and said i needed to leave. she said something like Kelsey you cant be talking to people while you work,(she turns to me) unless you want to work here. i said sure and she ( Read more... )

i went to court today to find out my punishment

i have 10 months of deferred or deferral
80 hours of community service( at a golf course i have applied for and i will be doing the things i would have gotten paid for
and 40 NA meetings
plus i owe my parents $1500 in court fees oh plus whatever the lawyer fees are.

big time haircut

you know when you take a nap in the afternoon/evening and you wake up around 9 or 10 and you completely think that its morning even though your clock says 9 o'clock, good thing im not a morning person or i'd be ready for school right now

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