so someone just photo messaged me something way horrid. it was tragic and i have no idea who sent it.

my fingers taste like ciggarettes. sickly sweet i guess, i love the flavor but it repulses me. i am not sure how i am doing tonight. i dont know what i am doing anything for. it keeps moving. i have all of these friends in trouble and it is wierd emailing them and talking to them and helping them. they thank me. they smile and beam and seem to get ( Read more... )

gwen and i hung out tonight, it was good if atleast a bit nerve wrecking. we both were afraid that it could go in the wrong direction but it looks like everything is all good between us. there isnt any wierd sexual tension anymore, well it's there we just addressed it enough so that nothing will happen. i can just go have sex with someone. it would ( Read more... )

looking for my apple but i know it is gone, need to find a new apple a new treat. got me some mushrooms but they are all out of magic so i will just need to make some more. i am thinking of getting a snake and mongoose tattoo. put it right over the rabbit's place. it would be sweet stuff. taking little tiny steps in desperation and i dont know why ( Read more... )

i have a tendency to do things emotionally trecherous. things that i really shouldnt do if i want to stay a happy shiney trevor. i just went on the most amazing walk, a walk that sucked so much of this dark shit out and revitalized me. of course i come home and do something stupid. and of course i know better. but what am i to do? how do you break ( Read more... )

so today was a good day. it was, it isnt so much now but for a while there it was actually pretty spiffy. i went to meghann's house to catch a ride to work and woke her up. apparently she fell asleep on the couch last night and didnt set her alarm. we still made it on time and i got a little nap while she was getting ready ( Read more... )

it hurts it hurts it hurts so god damned much and it doesnt dull or ease it just stings deep in my chest fucking pneumonia

up down up down i swear i dont know which fucking way i am supposed to go. or what i am supposed to do. honestly i feel sick. i want to say i should have known it would happen. i am sick of feeling stressed out over this. as soon as i think shit will some how work it fucking falls apart. i dont want to keep up all this frantic dancing. but for some ( Read more... )

pneumonia, walking pneumonia. great. just fucking fantastic. this is gonna be a fuckin trill ride. Are you ready for it?

i dont know what i am gonna do. no one is answering their phones.

so my life has basically fallen apart. i was just told by my roommate that he is gonna rent out the house after he renovates it. he offered it to me first. if i rent it the price will probably be 1550 plus utilities. i have 3 total rooms here and it is in a rad location so finding two/3 roommates wouldnt be too hard and if i got a second job and/or ( Read more... )