Don't leave me now
Title: Don't leave me now
Author thinkingfood
Rating: PG
Pairing/Focus: Jonghyun/ Key
Summary: Jonghyun's leaving and no matter Key says won't make him stay
"Please don't. stay." My words garble out as I begged him to stay. " No you can't leave, not yet. Please stay just a little longer." fresh tears were beginning to replace the drying drops on my cheek. The salty stream stings my eyes as it slides down my face, and before long the lean boy in front of me is just a blur.
"I'm moving to California" Jonghyun wrote me three days before in a late night text message. Half asleep and barely believing him I texted back "Ok, bring me back a jar of Cali sand! The pretty kind~" Turns out the joke is on me. He's leaving... Today.
I'm shaking as his palms come in contact with my outer forearms, my knees buckle and unbuckle under the stress of his news. And if Jonghyun wasn't holding me up I would have surely fell to the ground. "Why? Why?" I repeat to him over and over. I can't understand why he is leaving, I won't understand it.
My hands reach up to cup his face, Jonghyun's tears splash my palms before dripping through my trembling fingers. I bring his eyes up to look at mine; they say everything I can't. "Don't leave. things will get better. I promise. I can't lose you. Stay please." God I wish for everything to go back to normal. I wish for Jonghyun to show me that goofy smile that always seems to make me laugh no matter how bad something is. I just want it all to be a joke that Jonghyun planned to get me back for stealing his favorite cd and breaking it. But the look on Jonghyun's face tells me my wish won't come true. Everything is too somber and dark to be a joke. No one's laughing and that scares me.
My heart drops to my stomach and can feel it beating erratically. One beat, then a half of beat, then two beats follow. All at different beats and rhythms. I'm going to be sick. I run the pads of my thumbs over reach inch of Jonghyun's face, recording every detail to memory. I will never forget these eyes, this nose, this mouth. Never.
Finished with his face, I push my hands down his chest and around his waist, pulling him close to me for the last time. I can smell his body wash, the body wash that he stole from my apartment because it smelled good, on his neck. Maybe if I hold him like this I'll wake up from the nightmare and see Jonghyun sleeping next to me like always. "Dont go" I whisper in the crook of his neck. He kisses my hair and brings my face up to look at his. Now his has hands are cupping my cheeks and my tears are falling to his palms. His lips kiss both of my cheeks and forehead before brushing the lids of my eyes.
"I'll miss you Kim Kibum," I heard him whisper in my ear.
"Stay" I pleaded back.
"I can't."
He can't. He just can't.
Like a good friend I walked my best friend to his car and watched him drive away, out of my life forever. He couldn't stay, of course not. He had to chase after her all the way to California. He loved her and I loved him. It can never work out. I'm not the one, I was never the one.
"I love you Kim Jonghyun" I whisper to the silhouette of his fleeing car. "I love you but never told you." And now he will never know.
Looks who's posting twice in one week!!! Yay me!! *throws a little party* :) Sooooo let's see, the first post was crack, the second (this fic) is angst ;0, hmmmmm what should the next one be????? how about some fluff? I need some Jongkey lovin' hehehehe. Let me know what ya think! Comments = <3
Author thinkingfood
Rating: PG
Pairing/Focus: Jonghyun/ Key
Summary: Jonghyun's leaving and no matter Key says won't make him stay
"Please don't. stay." My words garble out as I begged him to stay. " No you can't leave, not yet. Please stay just a little longer." fresh tears were beginning to replace the drying drops on my cheek. The salty stream stings my eyes as it slides down my face, and before long the lean boy in front of me is just a blur.
"I'm moving to California" Jonghyun wrote me three days before in a late night text message. Half asleep and barely believing him I texted back "Ok, bring me back a jar of Cali sand! The pretty kind~" Turns out the joke is on me. He's leaving... Today.
I'm shaking as his palms come in contact with my outer forearms, my knees buckle and unbuckle under the stress of his news. And if Jonghyun wasn't holding me up I would have surely fell to the ground. "Why? Why?" I repeat to him over and over. I can't understand why he is leaving, I won't understand it.
My hands reach up to cup his face, Jonghyun's tears splash my palms before dripping through my trembling fingers. I bring his eyes up to look at mine; they say everything I can't. "Don't leave. things will get better. I promise. I can't lose you. Stay please." God I wish for everything to go back to normal. I wish for Jonghyun to show me that goofy smile that always seems to make me laugh no matter how bad something is. I just want it all to be a joke that Jonghyun planned to get me back for stealing his favorite cd and breaking it. But the look on Jonghyun's face tells me my wish won't come true. Everything is too somber and dark to be a joke. No one's laughing and that scares me.
My heart drops to my stomach and can feel it beating erratically. One beat, then a half of beat, then two beats follow. All at different beats and rhythms. I'm going to be sick. I run the pads of my thumbs over reach inch of Jonghyun's face, recording every detail to memory. I will never forget these eyes, this nose, this mouth. Never.
Finished with his face, I push my hands down his chest and around his waist, pulling him close to me for the last time. I can smell his body wash, the body wash that he stole from my apartment because it smelled good, on his neck. Maybe if I hold him like this I'll wake up from the nightmare and see Jonghyun sleeping next to me like always. "Dont go" I whisper in the crook of his neck. He kisses my hair and brings my face up to look at his. Now his has hands are cupping my cheeks and my tears are falling to his palms. His lips kiss both of my cheeks and forehead before brushing the lids of my eyes.
"I'll miss you Kim Kibum," I heard him whisper in my ear.
"Stay" I pleaded back.
"I can't."
He can't. He just can't.
Like a good friend I walked my best friend to his car and watched him drive away, out of my life forever. He couldn't stay, of course not. He had to chase after her all the way to California. He loved her and I loved him. It can never work out. I'm not the one, I was never the one.
"I love you Kim Jonghyun" I whisper to the silhouette of his fleeing car. "I love you but never told you." And now he will never know.
Looks who's posting twice in one week!!! Yay me!! *throws a little party* :) Sooooo let's see, the first post was crack, the second (this fic) is angst ;0, hmmmmm what should the next one be????? how about some fluff? I need some Jongkey lovin' hehehehe. Let me know what ya think! Comments = <3