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[thinksinpink]

I think it was a mistake to kill off my favorite character. I'm having a hard time with it and the better decision would have been to have just left entirely. I can't bring him back because that would be a dick move to the other writers who are directly and indirectly impacted.

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[allmysins]

A few years ago (okay like, 11 years) I used to write and rp with this guy and we decided to kill his character because of the natural inclination of the story. As soon as we were done writing, he curled up in the fetal position and sobbed. This intermittently went on for days. And 2 years later, he still missed him. Now I have no ducks about space time continuum or alternate storylines and I didn't back then either, but he wouldn't resurrect him in any form because it would have felt like a lie. Jay was a real person in your head. Give it time to get over.

[thinksinpink]

The only other time I've killed off a character was animus_nocendi and then when I regretted it, I went all Lazarus on him. And I like mixing the supernatural with the natural, but I don't want to introduce that into this story. And doing a straight undo would feel like a lie. It was the natural progression of the story, but I think I did it wrong or didn't think on it enough or something. He's been suicidal for a while, but he wasn't when I killed him. I'm willing to backtrack only so far as to put him in a coma. Because at this point, I'm not interested in Seb or Tina or any of them.

[wordsandshadows]

I didn't mean resurrect in the sense of bringing him back from the dead. If anything, I would support reintroducing him as a "new" character with a new storyline.

[thinksinpink]

And resurrection isn't something I want for this story, anyway.

I'm wracking my brain trying to figure out what I would be comfortable doing. I don't want to undo everything I put him through up to now. But I'm not going to just be like "oh, oops, he not dead", either.

[vegawriters]

M is right, you need to give it time.

Okay, she might be right about new character/new story.

But.

I think you need to take this time to maybe get to know other writers on their level. Really get to know them. Talk to them about their storylines, talk to them about why their characters should or could matter not just to them but to you and to your characters. Really talk to people who you have come in contact with. This could really be a chance for you to look beyond what you've been doing and stretch yourself

[thinksinpink]

I can't do new character/New story because all the crap I'd done to him made him who he was.

And as for getting to know people, I should be doing that anyway. I have this problem of wanting to keep people at a distance.

[vegawriters]

You can actually create a new character, which is my point. Get away from trucks and wander through an art gallery owner's life. Or something like that. Just to give yourself an effing break.

And you know, you do need to get to know people. I think a lot of your stress over this would have been eased if you'd actually talked to people about it rather than just diving forward. Writers might live solitary lives, but it doesn't mean we exist in a vacuum and our writing gets better when we talk to other writers and when we bounce ideas off of them in a give and take fashion.

[thinksinpink]

I don't need or want any new characters. I have plenty I don't even give half a rat's ass about. If anyone new shows up, it'd be his kid and she'll come if or when she's ready.