Not Lovable

[thirstyhippo]

"What scares me is that I'm going to ultimately find out at the end of my life that I'm really not lovable, that I'm not worthy of being loved. That there's something fundamentally wrong with me... & that I wasn't wanted here in the first place." - Demi Moore

Comments

[anonymous]

I came across your blog when I searched for Demi Moore's statement that you've quoted. Sadly, I feel exactly the same way and I know I'm not the only one out there. I'm at a loss to explain why there are so many in Western society who feel this way. I could try to guess, but the result would remain the same.

[canvasheart]

Dear girl, thanks for all your efforts to organise all these outings/gatherings though!

I know we don't say it to you much (alas) but I am really thankful for your spontaneity!
Do know that what you do are appreciated greatly!

I guess there's always a part of us (only a matter of how much or how little), that always feels displaced and a misfit.
I am a drifter amongst many of my different networks too, never quite fitting in nor taken seriously in return.
But I guess we keep trying, with seeking out those places and people who matter to us, and learning to put down/leave behind those who do not :/

JIAYOU for a new week ahead, and hopefully 2012 brings you good health, happiness and respite. <3<3<3 :)

ps. Chen Lao Shi mentioned the 95th anniversary thingum in NYGH in August! Count me in to help organise/coordinate if need be! I hope to go back with all of you :)

[anonymous]

uh okay i'm like two months late. sorry, not as active in checking blogs (or even updating them, for that matter) anymore :P

just wanted to say this: that you've always been appreciated for so many things. taking the effort to plan class outings, always being the happy random one who makes me laugh, offering me kino vouchers when you have them, taking so many photos and post processing them such that our class outings are never short of awesome photos.

i guess we're not on always on the same wavelength, which is why we were never close. but i just wanted to tell you, and i know i am not alone in saying this, that you've been an amazing friend, amazing classmate, and an amazing person to know.

i saw your relationship change over fb; and i'm really really happy for you, that you've found someone to love, and who loves you =] stay happy yinkae! you ARE loved =]

-jiahui